Alanis-CTFxC Fanfiction

Chapter 49

The past week has been the worst. I've started chemo. I've been really sick. I've even passed out. But I know it's all worth it because the chemo is supposed to get rid of all of this. I've been down lately. I've asked dad not to really show me. He thankfully said he wouldn't. The viewers sometimes jump to conclusions. They'll comment stupid things like "watch your child. She looks like she'll commit sucide." I know not all of the viewers are like that. When I'm in the vlogs I'll just explain it. This is the last day of this round of chemo. I feel like I'm going throw up. All I feel like doing is sleeping. Mom puts a trash can by the couch as I lay there. I fall asleep again. When I wake up I feel weak. I go into my room and put on a haters hoodie and sweat pants. I slide on my vans. I tell mom and dad that I'm watering the plants. I walk to the park. I go sit by the lake. Everyone thinks I'm tough and I can handle this. But I'm not. It scares me every day. My silent tears fall into the lake. I think I hear my name. It looks like it's another ctfxcer. Then I feel weird.