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Sapnap wakes due to a consistent blow of air on his neck. He squints his eyes open and is greeted with the ceiling. He feels so warm, the air on his neck doesn't even feel cold to him. He exhales deeply, not being this comfortable in a while.

He closes his eyes again to try and fall back asleep. If he's this comfortable and warm, he's going to bask in it. He can't sleep like this, though, so he turns onto his left side.

He hears a hmph and feels another blow of air on his neck. He furrows his eyebrows, not yet opening them and giving into waking up. The wind happens again, and then it hits him. The air is warm too because it's someone's breathing, and that breathing belongs to Karl. That sound was from Karl, who is tangled around Sapnap's limbs.

His arms are around Sapnap's torso, and his head is tucked into Sapnap's neck. One of his legs are intertwined with one of Sapnap's too. They're cuddling, they started cuddling in their sleep, and, more importantly, Sapnap is okay with that. Karl was right, they both were right; it wouldn't hurt if he stayed. They still need to be careful for themselves, though.

Sapnap moves his arm that isn't trapped under Karl to Karl's head.
"Karl" he whispers, trying to wake the man up. He shakes his waist with the other hand, since it's wrapped around it. Karl stirs and hums, then slowly lifts his head. He furrows his eyebrows at Sapnap, then Sapnap watches his face shift from confusion to shock. Sapnap nods, a soft smile on his face.

Karl laughs gently, almost giggling.
"Of course" he whispers and drops his head back down. Sapnap's hand follows it down, but his fingers stiffen. Karl's breath fans over Sapnap's neck again and he shivers.
"Of course we'd end up cuddling" Karl finishes his sentence. Sapnap nods and laughs along with him, until they both fall to silence.

Karl speaks up when something strikes his mind.
"Today would've been our anniversary" he notes. Sapnap takes a shaky breath, but Karl manages to chuckle.
"That's so cliché, Tina is right" Karl adds. Sapnap nods and one of his fingers catch a tangle in Karl's hair. They both freeze, both of them hyper focusing on their own actions.

Sapnap doesn't move, and neither does Karl. Their fingers dance slowly and hesitantly, slowly inching on their paths. Karl's fingers move along the fabric of Sapnap's shirt lightly, the pads of his fingers barely touching against it. Sapnap's fingers twitch, yearning to card through Karl's hair. Finally, they give in.

Neither are hurting, they both knew in the backs of their minds that after their talk and when they got back to the hotel room. Sapnap's fingers slip and run through Karl's short hair. Karl will grow it back out now that Sapnap's doing this again.

Karl presses against Sapnap's sternum, then wraps his arms around his torso. He squeezes him and sighs. Sapnap closes his eyes. They've missed this, but neither were sure of how the other felt. They ease back into each other, yet it comes easily. They fit into each other's arms perfectly. They know what makes the other happy. They know how the other feels laying wrapped in each other's arms.

Karl sighs steadily and tilts his head up. He can only see the underside of Sapnap's jaw and ear, and faintly the tip of his nose, but he smiles nonetheless.
"You're breathtaking" he assures, his voice dripping of honey and warmth. Sapnap leans his head down to look at him. He looks at him like he is the entire world, the entire universe. He's a delicacy and he is in Sapnap's hands.

Karl searches his features for a reaction, but his face never changes from the soft expression. Green eyes lock with blue-grey ones and they hold so, so much. Sapnap caresses Karl's cheek, it feels smoother than when they were in college. Karl's arms wrap around Sapnap's neck and his hands land in his hair. He scratches lightly and receives a hum from Sapnap.

Then, Sapnap's eyes flick down and Karl's heart skips a beat. It quickens its pace as he feels a finger skid over his cheekbone, then drop down to his chin and lips. It swipes over his bottom lip. Karl forgets to breathe. His eyes fall half-lidded and he gulps. He lets out a shaky breath.

"If I were..." he whispers slowly, "to tell you I never stopped loving you, what would happen? Would we be okay?" Sapnap smiles softly, his heart flutters in his chest. He feels weightless, all his questions have been answered.

Does he?
He does. He loves him and he thinks of them in metaphors as well.
Which was it?
He picked up the flower and picked the petals again, the last one picked was it's meant to be. This is fate. This was the plan all along. They'd come back to each other.

"We're going to be okay. I love you, so much, it is indescribable" Sapnap answers. Karl beams, "I've missed you so much, Nick." Sapnap matches his bright smile, "I've missed you too." Then, he presses their lips together. They mold perfectly together, always have and always will. Their tongues dance together in harmony and their lips move in sync. Their hands grip onto each other firmly and try to tug the other impossibly closer.

Karl pulls away panting, "I'm so, so sorry about everything."
"Shut up" Sapnap dives back in to kiss him, but Karl doesn't mind. They're okay, they're happy, they're together, and they're in love. They're never letting go again, just like when they promised around two to three years ago on New Year's Eve.

Written: 12/27/21 Words: 973
wow it's almost the new year also WOW WUESTIONS HAVE BEEN ANSWERED hope you loved it
it's not over

-moon ⎊