Secret Love - Bellatrix Lestrange

Revealing Secrets

It's been two weeks since the love of my life broke up with me. Nothing much happened in those weeks only that Pansy somehow made me happy again and laugh A LOT.
I'm really thankful for her I wouldn't have known what I had done without her.

But two things were on my mind:
That I still had to kill my best friends
And Bellatrix obviously

I had no idea how I should have killed them. And the dark lord wanted me to do it in the first moment I was back at Hogwarts but I managed it to convince him that I'll ned longer because of my secret plan that didn't even exist...

I was sad because of Bella. I haven't heard anything from her since she broke up with me. Of course I was worried, what if something happened to her? What if Rodolphus did something bad to her and I couldn't help her. All these horrible things wandered through my mind.

"Come on big girl we have transfiguration in 5 minutes." Pansy said and grabbed my arm and dragged me towards the class room. I just giggled.

We were the last ones but Mcgonagall didn't say anything. After transfiguration we had potions then care of magical creatures, history of magic and Herbology.

"God this was so exhausting!" I exclaimed sitting down in the great hall next to Pansy.
"I agree."
The dinner started to appear on the table and the two of us started to eat.
"Uh Pans?"
"Yes bae?"
"I have to tell you something really important later in our dorm okay?" I told her.
"Of course! Something bad?"
"Yeah kind of I guess."
"Oh no." She looked worried at me. My happy mood faded at the thought of what I would tell her later.

We finished eating and walked to our dorm.
"Okay babe tell me your problems." Pans sat down on my bed next to me.
"I- I don't even know how to say it's so horrible. But you have to promise me one thing. You can't tell anyone. If Someone finds out, then I'm dead."
"I won't tell anyone I Promise. You are my bestie and I love u to the moon and back. It doesn't matter how bad it is, I'll always be there for you. Understood?"

I nodded at her and shoved my left sleeve up exposing my death eater mark. I looked away from her feeling ashamed. Her eyes widened and she gasped.
"Y/n you- you are a- a death eater!" Pansy realized. She grabbed my jaw forcing me to look at her.

"oh god I know it's shitty but you are still the same Y/n you were before okay and I love u even though  you are a servant for the dark lord now. Nothing will ever change our friendship. But when did this happen?"

"It happened during the break. I was forced to Pansy. I didnt even want that! I couldn't do anything against them or him. Not even father could help. And Bella did NOTHING. I begged for her help but she ignored it. And now look at me I'm a bad person." I sobbed and tears formed in my eyes.

"Oh no babe come here. You are not a bad person do you hear me? You are the most perfect, nicest, bravest and beautiful girl I've ever met. And it's not your fault if you were forced. " my best friend hugged me tight. I cried in her shoulder.
She calmed me down and drew little circles on my back.

"Everything will be Fine Okay?"

"Mhm. I'm tired Pansy."
"Me to let's get some sleep."

We both laid down. I felt her hand sneaking around my waist. She pulled me closer and I felt so safe in her arms. Pansy whispered a good night. I whispered good night back.

The next morning was a Saturday luckily. Pansy and I stayed in bed until 11 am.
We decided then to go the library. On the way to it Pansy had to tell me something.

"Y/n?" I hummed a yes.
"I have also something to tell you." She stopped and looked at me.
"What is it."
"I'm a lesbian." She announced. My face lid up with joy. I jumped around her and laughed.
"I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT" I whisper- yelled.
"Okay okay calm down bae, didn't expect that reaction." The girl chuckled.
"Sorry I'm just really happy. I always hopes that you were a lesbian or at least bisexual."

"Well I am."
"What made you notice?" I asked curiously as we started to walk again.

"You probably."
I giggled.
"You wanna tell me that I made you realize you're gay?"

"Yep you say it. I realized it last year at Christmas were you wore that one sexy dress and then you had to kiss me because of the dare task."

"Oh yeah I remember. It was fun."

"Definitely."

As we arrived at the library, suddenly 4 death eaters appeared in front of us.