Being Single

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Our babies are born  Maura is in pain from surgery from losing too much blood from James being born and our son is having difficulty breathing. I am torn. Who do I sit with and not feel guilty? Maura,  James or Jane. Jane told me to stay with Maura because God will look after our son. My faith is wavering. I don't go to church but do believe. It's real hard for me at this time. Maura finally woke up from her surgery. We both are worried about our son James.

Maura is holding 1st born and we both are happy she is healthy . Angela comes in as well as Katelyn and our friends to see our children and pray for us all. I called Horatio right away and he has been here ever since James was born. He agreed with Jane for me to be with Maura. He would stay with James and he did for three days.  We finally were able to take him home. Angela stayed with Jane and Leo while I stayed with Maura and Kathryn at the hospital. Kathryn has already started bonding with us besides peeing on me when I changed her.  June was at the house and took a few photos.

Uncle Horatio with Kathryn and James.

Kathryn just dreaming and popping.  Maura and I flipped a coin and I loss. Horatio and the grandparents laughed at us. Kathryn was changed by Katelyn and esmi and Maura's adoptive mother scolded us both.  Paddy was hidden as usual and smiled while we were being scolded by the grandmothers.  Maura had us to leave them in our bedroom for a few so Paddy could sneak in and to hold them. The grandparents were downstairs along with Horatio.  I could see the love in paddy's eyes for his grandkids and Maura and Katelyn saw it too. We went back inside the bedroom before Horatio came back upstairs and Paddy took a photo of them and left.
Yilena was that who  I thought it was? Yes,  leave him be . He is their grandkids.  What? Horatio we are his twins but not many know for our safety.  Okay, but I don't like it. Horatio he will make sure they are safe.  He was at the hospital too when I was there the entire time.  Hmmm, so he has a soft side.  Horatio please don't use that against him. Maura I won't promise you that but will leave him alone for now.  I came back up here to tell you I need to get back home to Monterey. 
He hugs the twins and us and goes and hugs Leo. He says bye to all and leaves.
Jane comes in holding Leo. 
SO HE KNOWS ABOUT PADDY NOW? YES, MAUR I HAVE BEEN NICE BUT I DON'T SEE HORATIO DOING THAT. YES, HE BASICALLY STATED THAT TO US.

None of us were using the nurseries at the moment .
My mother finally left which made me happy.  She is a huge help but kept telling me I was doing this wrong and do it this way.  My son Leo appeared to be getting confused with the both of us on who his mother was.  I asked her nicely to leave and Yilena finally had to be stern and asked her to leave.  I know I will make mistakes as a mother but what mother hasn't.  I sure was missing my nani Rizzoli  right now.
Jane it's okay Angela will get over it.  This is one of the reasons we moved in here just in case you forgot.  Maur I know but it still wasn't easy to watch it. My parents and sister are finally gone too.  The grandma's didn't like how Yilena and I flipped a coin to see who was changing kathryn's diaper and scolded us but we did it again for James too. We all will get a hang of it. We just been parents less than a month. I was glad June came and got a few photos.  I wasn't too happy that 
Constance took one when I looked exhausted and sad about James and used it for her St.Patrick's card. Our parents made alot of mistakes too.
You two I know the grandparents aren't thrilled with me impregnating you both much less me being a female with  a penis.  The only one who is okay with it is Esmi and your step father Maura.  Yilena that is their own problem  As long as our children know we love them is all that matters. Let's go to bed.  Jane coke to my room with Maur please.  This will make it easier so I can help you both.  I promise no funny business even if I am horn. Okay   please hold our son while I get his bassinet and diapers with powder etcetera. Jane I got this.  You and Maura just get in bed.  You sure? Yes. Thank you.
I left and returned to find them cuddled together snoring.  They both were exhausted.  I was too but not close to them.