My Lifeline - Jaywon Shortstories

Grape Juice

Jungwon got up from bed quite irritated.

Who on earth is ringing the door bell at this time of the night?

From the time he woke up to the time he arrived in front of the door, the visitor had rang the bell at least 20 times.

I swear if they press that button once more.

Jungwon looked through the peephole and suddenly felt less enraged.

He opened the door, revealing Heeseung holding up Jay.
"What happened? Are you guys okay?" asked Jungwon.
"I'm the best I have ever beeeeeen" replied Jay, laughing.
"Hey" said Heeseung.
"I'm gonna need explanation" said Jungwon, frowning at Heeseung.
"I think Jay overdid himself with the wine, that's all" said Heeseung. "Could you help me?"
"Why should I help you?" asked Jungwon. "I told you this was a bad idea."
"Look, I've promised my mom I'd come home tonight, even if it would be late. But I can't bring Jay home like that. Could you take care of him please?" asked Heeseung.
"I will for Jay" said Jungwon. "But we'll talk about this later, I'm kinda mad"
"Okay, I'm sorry" answered Heeseung.

"Drive safely" added Jungwon, as Heeseung walked away.

"I'm thirsty" said Jay, looking at Jungwon.
"Come in Jayjay" replied Jungwon. "Want some water?"
"I would prefer some more wine" answered Jay.
"I don't think so mister" said Jungwon, placing Jay's arms around his shoulders and putting a hand on Jay's waist to help him walk.

"Call me Jayjay again" begged Jay, as he walked in a funny way, clinging to Jungwon.
"I'm going to bring you to my bed okay?" asked Jungwon. "So that I can keep an eye on you."
"This hallway is so dark" commented Jay. "Like my life is without you."

Jungwon tilted his head.
Wow, he's really wasted.

They finally reached the bedroom, after a quite difficult stop at the bathroom.

"You'll stay with me right?" asked Jay.
"Of course" replied Jungwon.
"Can I borrow one of your pajamas? They're always so soft, and they smell like flowery paradise" asked Jay.

Jungwon couldn't help but smile. Jay was always unfiltered when we was tipsy, but right now he was way passed that stage. He was "I say everything that goes on in my head" drunk.

"Take this one" Jungwon said, giving him a fluffy pajama.
"I like teddy bears" said Jay, taking his pants off.

Jungwon saw it coming and caught Jay before he fell.
"Your balance isn't responding well is it?" he asked.
"I'm balanced okay? I just happen to trip when taking my trousers out" replied Jay, not articulating each word well.
"Sure, sure" said Jungwon, helping him pass his feet out of the trousers.
"Could you help me?" asked Jay. "Please?"

Jungwon sighed. Who could resist Park Jongseong's puppy eyes?

"Of course Jayjay" he replied, grabbing the bottom of Jay's shirt and lifting it over his head.

Jungwon dropped the shirt on the floor, suddenly very aware that Jay was in front of him, bare chested.
"Wonie?" whispered Jay. "I'm cold."
"Of course" replied Jungwon, ashamed that he wasted time admiring Jay instead of helping him.

Once all dressed, Jungwon tucked Jay in his own bed. He looked a bit lost from being drunk, but he still gave off a major coolest guy on earth vibe.

Jungwon kneeled in front of his bed and caressed Jay's hair, slowly revealing his forehead. Jay was smiling, his eyes were closed. Finally, Jungwon got up and headed for the door.

"Where are you going? Don't leave me" said Jay, frowning.
"I'm just going to bring you a glass of water, in case you get thirsty during the night" explained Jungwon calmly.
"Oh, okay, thank you" replied Jay, even though he was still frowning.

Jungwon got out of the room, closed his door and leaned his back on it.

He and Jay had talked about them some months ago, and it was better at first. However, these last few days, Jay had gotten clingy again. He had hugged Jungwon more, talked to him more, and even though Jungwon kept a serious face, it made him melt inside.

Truth is, Jungwon didn't want any type of relationship. He wanted to focus on work, on his members, on his fans.

But it does feel good to know he cares about me. It feels good to know I can rely on him and that he trusts me.

Jungwon shook his head.

That changes nothing.

He finally went to the kitchen, filled a glass with water and came back. He opened the door silently, not knowing if Jay was already asleep.

"Won?" whispered somnolent voice.

Guess he's not.

"It's me" he replied, walking towards his bed. "I'll put your water on my nightstand, okay?"

Jay didn't answer, he just raised his hands, asking for a hug. Once again, Jungwon tilted his head.

He sat down and Jay grabbed him instantly, rubbing his face on Jungwon's back.

"Your pajama is so soft, you are like a giant teddy bear" he said laughing. "A giant kitty teddy bear."
"How much did you drink exactly?" asked Jungwon, slowly laying down.
"I don't know, I didn't count" explained Jay.
"I told you not to drink too much, but you never listen, do you?" asked Jungwon.
"Of course I do" said Jay.

Jungwon was on his back, and Jay had decided that the young man's torso would be his new pillow.
It felt just right. Them, together.
Jungwon bit his lip, as he always did when he was nervous.

Is this how being in a relationship feels like?

"Can we stay like this forever?" asked Jungwon, in a sad tone.
"You know we can't" said Jay. "You're the one who doesn't want to."
"Maybe I'm changing my mind" slowly replied Jungwon.
"Don't say that if you don't mean it Won" said Jay. "It breaks my heart every time we talk about this."

Jungwon frowned.

"You never told me this" he said.
"Why would I? You flirt with me and then you say you don't want anything. How else am I supposed to feel?" asked Jay, truly talking without any filter for the first time.

Jungwon had never thought about that.

"It wasn't on purpose" he explained, sincerely sad.
"I know" replied Jay. "I can't stay mad at you anyway, I love you."

Jungwon froze.
He loves me?

Jay hadn't even noticed how important what he had just shared was. He just hugged Jungwon tighter.

"Good night Wonie" he said, closing his eyes.

Jungwon laid there, lost in his thoughts.

On some level, he always knew Jay loved him, but he didn't expect how different it would feel to hear him actually saying it.
It wasn't just a crush. It wasn't just a vibe.

Jay loved him.

He loved him so much that he had accepted Jungwon not wanting a relationship without questioning it.

Jungwon looked down. Jay's head gently went up and down, following his own breathing. He had one hand on Jungwon's stomach too.

Screw it.

Jungwon decided to hug Jay back. The latter woke up to change positions. In the end, they were face to face spooning, Jungwon being the bigger spoon.

"I love you too Jay" he whispered, caressing his hair gently.