My Lifeline - Jaywon Shortstories

Cloud 9

"Doesn't this one look like a flower?" asked Jungwon, his finger pointing at the sky.
"A flower?" replied Jay, chuckling. "It looks more like a cat to me."

Jungwon let his arm slowly fall.

"Oh, I see the cat too" he finally said. "You have quite the imagination Jay hyung."
"What about this one?" asked the latter. "I think it looks like an elephant, don't you?"

"Wait this one?" asked Jungwon, pointing at another cloud.
"No, that's the brain one" replied Jay.

Do I dare?

Jay hesitated an instant, but decided to go for it. He raised his hand, took Jungwon's in his and gently guided it to the left.

"This one" he explained.

He didn't know if his voice had sounded calm enough. Thing was, his hand was burning up. Touching Jungwon always had this effect on him, and he didn't like it.

Jay wished he could simply enjoy their vibe and go on with his life. However, his heart didn't understand the assignment.

No, it really didn't. His heart kept racing when he heard Jungwon laughing, when he saw his cute -and totally illegal- dimple or when his hand touched him by accident.

It was never on purpose, but it happened. Today only, it had happened several times. The members were doing a photoshoot outside, in a beautiful field covered with flowers. There was a light breeze passing by, gently moving the grass and flowers. The staff had asked Jake, Jay and Jungwon to pose together, and obviously, it had happened.

Why does it bother me so much? It was just a hug for the picture. Nothing more.

That was a lie, and he knew it.

"What about this one?" asked Jungwon, bringing Jay back to reality.

Jay was still holding Jungwon's hand, but the latter had moved it to point at a new cloud.

"What do you think?" asked Jay, curious.
"Hum" said Jungwon, thinking. "It kind of reminds me about the Engene symbol."
"That's true" replied Jay, seeing it as well.

Jungwon put his arm down once again.

Something is weird.
Why hasn't he pushed my hand away?

Jay was shocked.
Actually it got even worst.

Jungwon's fingers slowly moved, as if he wanted to intertwine them with Jay's.

"I like clouds" whispered Jungwon, as if he hadn't just pulled a hand holding move on Jay.
"Me too" replied Jay.

Are we talking about clouds?

"Guys, food is here" announced Sunoo's voice behind them.

Damn.

"I had forgotten we were working" said Jungwon, seemingly frustrated.
"Yeah.. but it was a good break" replied Jay.

"We should go" said Jungwon, taking his hand back after hesitating a bit.
"I guess we should" added Jay, already missing Jungwon's presence next to him.

He hated that. Why couldn't they just spend the rest of the afternoon like that?
Lazily laying on the grass, watching the clouds passing by and forgetting about the rest of the world?

~

"Good job everyone" said Sunghoon, before shoveling his spoon into his tiramisu.
"It was a good photoshoot I think" added Sunoo.
"We grew better at posing for pictures. It's funny how we weren't at ease at all at the beginning, remember?" asked Niki.

Did Jay remember?
Of course he did. During their first photoshoot, he had posed with Jungwon only. This was part of his favorite moments with the leader.

He liked the intimacy they had shared.
He loved how pretty and precious Jungwon was.

I might have to rethink this "just wanting the vibe thing"

"We should take some polaroid photos as well" suggested Jungwon.

The leader had found a polaroid camera and proceeded to immortalize their food break.
There were Sunoo and his choco mint non sense snacks, Niki and his taiyaki, Sunghoon and his tiramisu, and he had to capture Heeseung and Jake sharing a freshly cooked ramyeon as well.

"Take one of Jay hyung and me, too?" he asked, giving the camera to Niki.
"Sure" replied the latter.

Jungwon turned back and Jay's heart stopped. Jungwon's beauty was highlighted by everything around them.
The flowers, the light breeze, the beautiful blue sky with clouds, everything.

Jungwon smiled at him and came closer, passing his right arm on Jay's back to pose.
Jay did the same, and they decided to do their famous meowz hand gesture.

Jay stayed still, waiting for Niki to take the picture. Jungwon, on the other hand, decided it was the good moment to hum a song.

A song Jay knew.
One he knew very well rather.

"There you go" said Niki, picking the polaroid getting out of the camera.
"Thank you" replied the leader.

Did he stage all of that?

~

The bus ride was quite long. As they were all exhausted, they fell asleep rapidly. Jay had his head near the window, which wasn't that comfortable. First, the glass was cold on his forehead and then, it kept shaking his head.

Jay sighed, he had to change positions, but he couldn't. Jungwon had his head on his shoulder.
At first he thought he would rather be uncomfortable but not bother Jungwon, however after ten minutes, he changed his mind.

Okay, you can do it.
There's nothing wrong or suspicious.

He gently leaned his head on the opposite side and rested it on Jungwon's head.
The latter didn't move. His breath was still peaceful, proof that he was sleeping.

Jay smiled, that was much better.

Jungwon was pretty close to me today. I wonder what changed. I'm usually the more clingy one.

But really, suggesting we take pictures and then humming polaroid love while holding me was....

Could he?

Jay looked at Jungwon. His eyes were closed, highlighting his beautiful eyelashes.

Is that what you want Wonie?