Tommyinnit One shots

Lost a friend

Have some angst. Au where Tubbo never met Ranboo and they didn't adopt Michael.
Inspired by song 'I lost a friend' by Finneas O’Connell.

Angst
TW: Mention of death

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Tubbo sat lonely at the hill, gazing at the stars on the clear sky. However, he wasn't able to adore them and admire their beauty. He was far from being calm, or even happy. Everything changed when he heard the news that broke his heart. He was once again alone. Left by the only person he cared about the most. Tommy. His dear and only best friend. Boy younger than him, but taller and stronger. They were unseparated, always on each other side. If you messed with one, you could wait fot the other one to pay back.
Unfortunately, their friendship didn't last long. the younger one left the earth sooner that he should, leaving the older one alone. With nothing else, than a broken heart and empty mind.

I lost a friend
Like keys in a sofa
Like a wallet in the back seat
Like ice in the summer heat

He could also leave this world of his choice, but he promised. He promised to the younger one that no matter what, he will be strong and will stay alive for both of them. But he wasn't strong enough. He broke seconds after the death of his friends, leaving with with pain so sharp in his heart that could easily reap his apart.

I lost a friend
Like sleep on a red-eye
Like money on a bad bet
Like time worryin' about
Every bad thing that hasn't happened yet

His breath was heavy and shining, as his body trembled trying to get rid of the pictures of his dead friend. He couldn't, he simply couldn't move on. As much as he tried and prayed for it to disappear from his head, it stayed with him. It hurt more than anything. More than a stab wound from the strongest warrior, more than any pain, more than death. The thought of the day when his friend die.
The worst thing was that he couldn't do anything, while he watched the old 'friend' of theirs stabbing him. It replied in his head over and over again, traumatizing him even more if it was possible.

I know I'll be alright
But I'm not tonight
I'll be lying awake

He didn't care about all the tears that fell on the ground and wet his shirt. He didn't care if it was freezing cold and he was only wearing black shirt. He would be as good as death now. He lost the touch with reality, slowly fading in his tiredness. Tubbo forced himself awake, trying to stay awake much to his dislike. He promised that to Tommy and he wasn't willing to give up. But it was all too much for him. He wasn't able to keep up with everyone else anymore.

Countin' all the mistakes I've made
Replayin' fights
I know I'll be alright
But I'm not tonight
I lost a friend, I lost a friend

He whished all the fight they ever had never happened in the first place, he just wanted to erase them from his memory. He wanted to forget about everything that happened in the past, so he could calmly disappear into the darkness and never wake up again.

I lost my mind
And nobody believes me
Say, "I know that he is dead
'Cause he was killed and taken away"

He didn't want to live anymore. Some may say he lost his mind, but he didn't care. They might say that life is beautiful and he should be happy that he is alive. But what was a life without his friend? They did everything together, there was no such a thing they wouldn't do together. They were particularly brothers, living with each other and spending every day together. Now it was gone, they got separated. And now people began to notice how much Tommy was important for Tubbo, when they noticed that his eyes full of live now seemed to die. There was no happiness in them, nor joy or that excitement he showed whenever he saw a bee. Bee's were past now, they didn't bring so much fun now.