sex therapy || chanlix

#19 conjoin

'i don't feel like myself anymore..'

•:*✿.': ✿.︎-*✿.;.✿': ✿.︎-*✿.:•

sunlight bled through the pastel blue curtains, irritating the brunette's peaceful slumber.

he was eventually drove awoken due to the vexatiously crack of dawn condemning it's arrival. though it wasn't a pleasing one, it caused every limb in his body to ache when consciousness slurred him back to his awoke state.but mostly, his back.

maybe it was due to the hard mattress which belonged to his bed. though he slept on it countless number of times, it still caused a striking ache down his back.

groaning softly at the conjuring pain, he scrunched his face in aggravation. and just as he was about to tussle into a better position, he was met with a strong pair of veiny hands gripping at his waist.

gulping at his stupidity, he later came to realize that he was bundled into a sleeping position with chan still spooning after he agreed to let him stay last night.

felix didn't quite point out why he became so clingy, and needed urgent reassurance from the blonde to not leave right after he was being pleasured. you could say it was due to the argument with his girlfriend- and the issues compressing between the two and their relationship. but, something was telling him that it wasn't right.

he felt like this wasn't his first time to be used.

though it was pleasureful, it felt like he'd experienced being left alone after allowing someone access to their body. it felt so nostalgic..

had he done this before?

cutting off his thoughts, a ding of notification popped up on the screen of his phone. he stretched his arm out to grab it, squinting his eyes tightly to where he could read what message awoke him this morning.

(7) messages from seoul-hee <3
- i'm so sorry about last night..i didn't mean to lash out all my
frustration on you like that..it's just that—
i was too frustrated to accept the fact to live away from you.
- we've been together for so long, and unexpectedly leaving
was just too hard for me to handle.
- i hope you forgive me..although, i understand if you don't either.
- i wasn't being that nice last night..and i kinda figured
you wouldn't wanna see me anytime soon..

- i left to the airport this morning, i also told your brother
about it so reach out to him if you ever feel lonely.
- i'm sorry i couldn't bid you a decent goodbye.

- i just figured you needed some space.

felix intently read every word brightly emitting on his soft pupils, that were now alarmingly bulged.

he'd somehow not expected a large explanation of apology from his girlfriend, since he found it quite odd. he'd never fought with girlfriend too seriously to where it lead into taking physical actions as a response.

though, even with his giving nature, he too agreed he needed some space from his girlfriend.

it wasn't something he should've been thankful for, but he was grateful she moved away for a certain period of time to where he could clear out all his fogged thoughts.

he had delt with a lot of trauma already, and needing space from an arising one was going to be hard to accept.

so he decided that he'd not think about them for a while, hopefully convincing himself that those moments never occurred before.