sex therapy || chanlix

#27 bagatelle

'you make me, me.'

•:*✿.': ✿.︎-*✿.;.✿': ✿.︎-*✿.:•

the two ultimately decided to drive to chan's apartment for the night, since the blonde had taken up the steering wheel.

felix leaned against the window to his side, observing how each car swarmed one direction. a lot of thoughts were bugging him, and he had yet so much to worry about. but since the older was present next to him, the company was enough to not make him overthink just yet.

but the silence was killing him.

did he make chan mad? the older seemed quite pissed after he returned, especially from the deathly grip of his nails digging into the velcro of the steering wheel.

"lix.."

felix shot up from the mention of his name, his attention now diverted towards the blonde.

"yeah?"

chan refused to glance back at the brunette waiting for his response. it was tough to question something this upright, especially since he wasn't really aware of how the outcome of the brunettes response would be.

"how long did you sign up for sex therapy?"

right when the words rolled off the older's tongue, felix fell pale. he had forgotten all about his sessions of therapy. the reason chan was with him right now, was because he would be paid for every session. though it seemed a foolish reason to forget, felix felt his frustration adding up. he'd already have burdens forced upon his shoulders, and the only solution to them was chan. but will his only resolution have to be left?

"t-two weeks.."

chan pressed his tongue to the roof of his mouth, "you can extend the sessions if you'd like."

felix now wished chan would've mentioned it earlier to save him from the sudden abrupt thoughts and realization. nonetheless, he was glad he was aware now.

"i want to extend them, then."

it was chan's turn to feel a burden come off his shoulders and his emotions to be replaced by relief. he was glad felix gave the outcome he wasn't even sure if the younger would've even considered it.

that was chan's biggest fear. one day felix would walk away, after he realizes that chan was just an experiment.

"you want to?"

felix nodded, without any hesitation. he needed more time, and he barely recovered from the idea of having sex with seoul-hee. in fact he still never craved it, but he assumed he needed more time.

"i'm talking financially, can you manage?"

the brunette stopped to think about it. his only source of income was his girlfriend. the guilt of asking her to financially support him made him hesitate. he was barely a good boyfriend, and he was aware of that. and to add up to that, seoul-hee worked hard enough for the two of them, while he stayed at home and slept with his sex therapist.

felix just wanted to exchange his body with another just to escape all the problems he faced. he believed that he, as a person, was dreadful and just a drag. especially to his girlfriend.

but, even through it all..it was the stake of loosing chan..

he wouldn't ever crave that, not from how close they grew. he was fine with the reason of chan using him for his body or maybe just the money he got out of their sessions, but he still wasn't ready to go.