sex therapy || chanlix

#23 safewords

'our thighs have the strongest bones in our body'

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the night of new years, felix legitimately begged to be closer towards the blonde whilst in his drunk state. he wouldn't let go of the older, whining or threatening to spell a river of tears if he was torn away from his side for even a second.

chan noted to himself, that felix was clingy when drunk. he knew that these actions were what felix wanted stored away or unspoken while he still had his consciousness. he was pleasantly surprised at how clingy he really was, when in reality, the brunette would even struggle to hold hands.

"lix, i really can't stay with you."

a whine escaped the brunette's lips, his nails digging a tight grip on the blonde's muscular arm. "but hyung~"

shaking his head, chan did the best he could to gently pry his arm off of him, "you know i can't lixie, i have my own apartment."

stubbornly protesting, the brunette started whining louder, making the older quickly turn red out of embarrassment from the looks they'd attracted of the other tenants.

huffing, he figured there was no other answer the younger would agree to, he continued,

"fine, i'll stay." accepting his defeat he watched as felix's eyes lit up at his statement, "but only for tonight."

ignoring the second part of his statement and being overwhelmed by receiving what he pleased, the brunette immediately pounced off his seat and hugged his arms around the blonde's neck, gently inhaling his cologne scent.

chan really shouldn't have thought of it any different of the latter but the way pleaded, begged and clung to be close to him made him feel somewhat special- or wanted. felix craved to be closer to him and only begged to be wanting him.

so chan internally questioned again, did felix want him or his actual girlfriend?

scoffing at the thought he brushed it out of his mind, of course felix would settle for someone way more worth than him. felix denying his sexuality made it even challenging to believe that he wanted chan and not seoul-hee.

the topic itself was enough to make chan feel frustrated with his feelings, and the cause itself pushing an avalanche of possibilities in his head. making him feel stressed again.

"i should really get my feelings under control.."

"what was that channie?" the brunette chirped, his hot alcohol aromatized breath sending tingles down his neck.

chan shook his head, using a free hand of his which wasn't holding his waist to stroke through his brown locks.

"nothing, let's get you back home."

nodding, the younger rested his head back down between the crook of his neck, his eyes fluttering shut as he felt comfortable enough to fall asleep right on his shoulder.

assuming that the brunette didn't have any intentions of walking, his hands trailed down to his thighs, gently groping at the soft flesh as he lifted him with ease.

the position mended perfectly for the younger to embrace more into his neck, enjoying how he was being utterly babied and manhandled with such gentleness.

of course, the walk towards his apartment wasn't as smooth from their peculiar position, they earned various stares and whispers by the commoners around, creating enough commotion for the brunette to divert his attention.