sex therapy || chanlix

#40 divulgence

zero.
'what tore us apart, brought us together.'

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"when were you going to tell me?"

the blonde had herself prepared for the upcoming question, yet she fell speechless. she felt as if her words had taken a toll for her actions for once.

glancing back the teary eyed brunette, she flashed a smile that screamed sympathy. "i'm surprised you didn't figure it out until now."

seoul-hee scoffed unbelievably, for once she thought she found a person who understood her pain and wanted the best from her. yet, the same person turned out to care only for themselves.

"you really thought you could avoid talking about your feelings for me, racheal?"

her voice tremor as she spoke, the tears were battling against her eyelids which refused to blink.

racheal wasn't any different. a part of her felt ashamed, yet she blamed her feelings for developing against her will. though it wasn't a voluntary wish, she still craved for them to magically find an escape route and come to a cease.

"you were bound to find out anyway." she defended, refusing to meet seoul-hee's eyes as she turned her back and crossed her arms.

at that comment, the brunette choked out a painful chuckle, her tone perceiving anything but happiness.

"here i thought you really cared," she shook her head, feeling as if it was the biggest mistake she made by assuming; that maybe someone would understand what she went through. assuming; that maybe racheal saw that she deserved a better place, but that wasn't it.

"i do care." the blonde admitted, "just too much.."

hearing enough spilled from the blonde's mouth, seoul-hee dashed to pick up her own phone and storm back into her bedroom.

for a reason, she didn't want to hear or speak from racheal anymore.

so she sat back on her bed, biting down on her lip as she felt the guilt seep in. she felt embarrassed. and believe it or not, she felt as if the curtains that shielded her eyes from reality were finally drawn open when she heard racheal speak to her ex that way. she sounded so evil as if her intentions were to truly hurt felix.

but then she realized that she wasn't any different. thinking back on her actions, she realized that she was rooting for the same outcome. yet, she felt guilty.

no matter how wrongly felix treated her, she still had a heart. she still savored those moments that they shared while they two were together. she appreciated felix's presence in her life, and a part of her still wished they at least maintained a friendship.

the two were together for 3 years, and spent their college years being glued onto each other. and letting such a friendship slip away from her grip, it hurt her too.

so with her shivering hand, she glanced at the phone clutched in her palm.

'it won't make a difference.' she thought, 'but i refuse to not do anything. after all, i screwed up too.'

with that affirmation, she dialed a very known number and held the device against her ear as she patiently heard the phone ring.

'hello?'

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the effervescent skies that dawned upon the sky were well expectedly causing a drizzle of waterfall to sprawl across continuously that night. felix envisioned them as the earths cry, telepathically relating to his own tears.