DSERIES 1: Fathomless Desire [COMPLETED]

| Chapter 1

With her wide smile plastered on her lips, the whole damn system of mine went upside-down. It was just a smile, but what the fudge on earth happening to me? Damn that smile, damn that lips... I want to taste it.

Am I too bad for I fancy her knowing she was owned by my friend? It's not love at first sight, right? That's insane. Such a thing is not realistic.

As I have stated, love is merely an idea—something that is usually composed of grandiloquent words, poetic promises, and raw action. I have both witnessed and been touched by the thought of it, and I can state with certainty that nothing in the way of expression can accurately convey its essence, especially when it comes from short interactions with one another. 

Something that I can also define, but without the first hand experience of it, I will never claim such thing aside from the thought that it was just a plain concept. Asserting this, it makes me laugh. Literally, it sound so hilarious. 

Nakakahindik marinig ang pawang ideya na sumasagi sa aking isipan.

With that being said, I scowled, not believing that hearing her speak would make me fall in love. No way in hell, na mahuhumaling agad ako sa isang babae na wala pang ilang minuto kong nakakasama, pero siraulo na ba ako? I glanced at her before my eyes roamed around again, indeed, kalokohan 'to sa sarili ko.

Niloloko ko lang sarili ko if I say otherwise, dahil hindi naman ako kahapon lang ipinanganak para hindi maisaad kung ano ang totoo. 

Pero ayoko pa rin paniwalaan as I couldn't identify the peculiar sensation I'm dealing with just like what I read from the dictionary, but why does it have to be her? Sa dami-daming babae, kung kailan naramdaman ko 'to, bakit sa babaeng pagmamay-ari pa ng kaibigan ko?  

Literally, everything about it seemed foreign, yet it feels so illegal.

Wala pa man, pero ilegal na. 

Our troops never had any inkling that love is an essential component of who we are as humans. Perhaps due to our particular experiences, the circumstances that we have faced and endured through, and the impact resulting from all of our sufferings and barriers as time gone by, it resulted as something that will never be quite a word we make use of.

I suppose I could argue that love exists among our circle since each of us perceives each other as flesh and blood members of one extended family, but the kind of love we are attempting to relate to is the romantic physical form.

"Lux, back off." I turned my head and the corner of my eyes dropped on Calleb, who was standing next to her. His dark eyes screamed threat. Do I come out as too obvious?

However, I am inclined to think that this is just a pure misunderstanding here; I am simply having difficulties with an unnamed sensation that I am incapable of and a thing that I am not allowed to sort out. Furthermore, I find it really hard to convey this since, unfavorably, I succumbed to it with Aecella... out of all the people around me, sa kaniya pa talaga ako nakaramdam nito.

Excuse, spit one out of your mouth Lux.