DSERIES 1: Fathomless Desire [COMPLETED]

| Chapter 16

Their images showed up as I slowly opened my eyes and began to look around. I'm not exactly sure what happened, but my head was spinning so extremely badly that it really hurt. I desperately want to hit it to alleviate the pain, but I can barely move my entire body. Lockett sat next to me and handed me a glass of water.

The wear and tear I had following all that unfolded matter came up some time ago did make me feel as though I had ran a hundred miles. I've had enough, completely knackered, and experiencing a hard time breathing.

I was not able to allow myself to accept the bomb they dropped, let go of what had happened, and allow myself to ease a little considering that what happened had all remained still fresh in my mental frame of mind, regardless of the fact that it had formerly caused me pain.

Since I was not their kid, striving to earn acceptance from them, no matter how many times , how hard, and how desperately I tried, never succeeded.

That explains why they never showed me affection. They are so preoccupied and been overworking just to avoid me and decided to have no spare time for me. They fail to acknowledge me, and they fail to value me, they aren't fond of me, the same as I do, and that's why.

How cruel life has been to me.

"Is Luxcian perfectly alright? He's been unconscious, dapat na tayong mag-alala. And perhaps, we need to take him to the hospital, as he has been unresponsive for some time." Caevan. His voice filled me with dreariness considering that I had barely been half alert. Was I indeed out cold for minutes?

Everyone seemed to be extremely concerned and alarmed, but the situation had become too much for me, and I ended up falling down once more.

Every time that passed, all I could sense inside of me was nothingness.

How could I be treated this way by the inhabitants of this world?

I've always been an exceptionally thoughtful person, I've never been part of the forces of darkness, and I do my hardest to behave toward others decently and with courtesy.

Indeed, I possess negative tendencies, however I do not consistently showcase them. Conversely, am I truly deserving of this level of suffering? Oh, how I wish it was all nothing but a dream.

"Lux, are you okay?" Deth.

My eyes were closing slowly, but I wanted to remain awake. Things will simply return to play once I fall into the land of nod. That's what I'm absolutely terrified of. I'm worried about... that those buried scenes will leave my heart with numerous bruises, stings, and cuts. I certainly cannot endure it.

My mommy. My real mother.

It's odd that God gave me the parents I wanted, but they left me so abruptly. Then, along with the truths, all the memories that ought to have been kept close to my heart till my final breath are lost. Fudge. Paano ko nagawang nakalimutan ang mga bagay na dapat ay dala-dala ko sa bawat yugto maging sa pagtanda ko?