Trapped to the Beats

Chapter 23

News Update: February 20xx

8 wheeler truck smashed 5 cars and 2 motorcycles at the main counter road of District I, Rizal. Two students from State University were found critical in the incident.

Two students from the biggest known University in Rizal were found critical at the incident on counter road District I Rizal.

The driver of 8 wheeler truck who is under alcohol influence was shoot in jail for losing break at the counter road causing them to lost 5 people's lives, 2 students were critically sent to a nearby hospital.

My flesh trembled as I found myself again scrolling at google about what happened to me—to us, 7 years ago while having a coffee in my office this sunny afternoon.

It pained me to the core of my heart.

Because I never knew it'll come.

I never realized that we will be in that state.

Our army wasn't prepared. I wasn't prepared knowing the fact Nova needed me that time as well. Punong puno ako ng pag-sisisi na sana hindi nalang ako nag-aya dumaan ng mall para bumili ng prutas. Sana hindi ako nangulit ng araw na iyon. Sana dumiretso nalang talaga kami sa hospital gaya ng gusto ni Migs. Sana ay hindi kami hahantong sa ganito.

Punong puno ng sana ang kalooban ko.

Luckily, Nova survived her last minute and God heard my prayer.

Punong puno siya ng pag-sisisi ng magising rin dahil bumungad sa kanya ang masamang balita. We've got to an accident, and both of us went critical state. We got comatose, me for about 4 months and Migs . . .

I have no idea how long he have been in comatose. Pag-gising ko. . . wala na siya dito sa Pilipinas.

It was an accident that made us part ways without saying goodbye to each other. It's so sudden for us. Especially for me. My man was transferred to Canada immediately by his parents and grandparents and we never heard any news from him even his bandmates since then. It's like they prohibited him to get along with us, anymore.

And it's so funny how his family blamed me for what happened to us, to what happened to their son. It brought chaos to my father as well after the incident. Migs grandparents scorn my father, even got involved in my problem. My family and I take the blame for what happened to him even though it is purely an accident.

Kahit anong pilit ipaliwanag sa kanila ay buo ang isipan nilang kasalanan ko ang lahat ng nangyari.

Kase ganun naman talaga ang buhay, may mga taong sadyang maghahanap at maghahanap ng masisisi. Papa left the hacienda and started focusing himself on fishing. Nagkaroon sila ng pwesto sa palengke ni Tita and to God to be glory, it was doing well up until now.

The accident brought trauma to me also because I can no longer ride a motorcycle since it happened. Iisipin ko pa lang ay naginginig na ang kalamanan ko. Whenever I was surrounded by many cars, I got panic easily thinking that it'll hit me when it was not.

The incident four years ago where lights almost blinded me kept coming back in my head like almost fucking every night.

Mama, when she learned the news of me being got into accident. She immediately went back to Philippines from England to take care of me. Namatay na pala kase ang kinakasama nito at sa kanya napunta ang mga pamana nito.

Back to the days she keep on calling me that I always ignore, gusto na pala niya akong kuhain. She wants to make up with me, but I was too stubborn that time ignoring her. She made up to Papa and Tita already. Nagka-ayos at nagkalinawan na sila and nagdesisyon si Mama na kuhain ako sa poder ni Papa.