Trapped to the Beats

Chapter 21

"What are you doing?"

Tanong ko kay Migs habang napipikit-pikit na. Kauuwi lang namin parehas galing sa school. Still my face was shown on the screen half only! Nahihiya pa rin ako at hindi sanay. But eventually, I will get to this kind of new set up of communicating with someone you really love. Sabi kase niya it's the other way to see me kapag hindi kami magkasama.

"I'm busy."

My forehead furrowed. "Busy of what?" nakasimangot kong tanong.

"Busy. . . thinking of you," ngumisi ang labi niya habang nakatitig doon sa screen pilit sinisilip ang reaction ko. But since kalahati nga lang ng mukha ko ang kita ay hindi niya makita ang kabuuan ng naging reaksyon ko.

Migs, my boyfriend became more clingy the following days and weeks have passed. He always let me feel the love I deserve, assures me that he's always by my side. He always give me the attention I didn't ask although he has many works to do related to his studies and being him, the drummer of their band, and being a grandson to his grandparent.

It feels like still a dream that I welcome the new year with someone I never knew would be the biggest part of my life. Someone who let me trust people again, kahit na nandoon parin ang takot at pangamba na baka masaktan ako ulit.

"Still, can't sleep beb?" he asked.

Nakaayos na ang screen nya ngayon kung saan kita ko na nag-gagawa na naman siya ng plates and other activities niya. Magulo na naman kase ang table niya, punong puno na naman ng mga puting papel.

"Do you want me to sing?"

"Ay, mali. Kantahan nalang pala kita." And he did it again while doing his works.

Ganoon ang palaging nangyayari tuwing uwian sa hapon. We would call each other and sometimes he would sing me a song until I fall asleep. Kapag papasok, he would fetch me sometimes using his motor when he is in District III but most of the time sa apartment nya sa District I nya siya natuloy, lalo na kapag loaded talaga siya. And I would commute alone papasok sa school.

Kapag weekend naman, we would help in the farm. Or sometimes, we are with the kids playing with them. Minsan naman ay tinuturuan ako ng lalake na sumakay ng kabayo na hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko parin alam.

Sa mga araw na nag-daan, halos araw araw rin akong may candid pic kay Migs. Hanggang sa nasanay nalang ako sa ganoong gawain niya. Iginawa pa ako no'n ng instagram para doon ko daw ipost ang ibang pictures ko na kuha niya.

Hindi ko mapigilang hindi kiligin sa pinag-gagagawa niya sa akin. He's such a boyfriend material I couldn't ask for more. Ang laki ng pasasalamat ko sa may-kapal!

I failed my promise to Nova, that I'll live again together with her. Hindi na ako pinayagan pa ni Papa na mag-part-time job pa. He said what I've done for a years is enough at siya na daw ang bahala sa akin sa pag-aaral ko as it was his responsibility first of all as a father.

I waited for Mom to call me again as I was ready to forgive her. I had already forgiven her but she didn't call me again. Somehow, I wanted to know what she was up to. Is she doing well since she left us? Is she successful now? Things like that.

Last time kase na sinubukan namin ni Migs na kontakin ang number na madalas nyang itawag ay cannot be reach na ito.

Time really flies so fast when you're enjoying things. Halos kulang ang isang araw kapag kasama mo ang taong mahalaga sa iyo.

After school, if I wouldn't see Migs outside of our campus school gate waiting for me. Ako naman ang makikita nya sa campus gate nila, naghihintay sa kanya. A vice versa. We would eat isaw or KFC sometimes together with my friends and his, just like before. Or minsan tatambay kami sa riverside at maghihintay ng sunset.