The Dare

Chapter 21

It's been two days I've been out of school but today I got the strength to go. Noah and I haven't talked since Bryces, not that I want to him to but I miss his presence. I miss everything about him. I miss the good morning and good night texts he sends every single day, I miss when he would compliment me on the smallest things,
I never understood why he'd look at me like I was somehow worth more than the whole world, but it made me feel like I was finally enough.

I walk in the entrance, dreading to face him, his locker is near mine. I take a deep breathe feeling my eyes watering but hold it back. I keep my eyes fixed on my locker and no where else as I walk towards it, but for some reason my eyes quickly glanced around and I was looking at Noah. He was staring right back at me, with the same look he gave me at Bryce'a house.
I quickly look away and get to my locker,  finally being able to breathe.
A piece of paper was in it. I knew exactly who it was from, Noah. The boy who I know is still staring at me. I felt the urge to rip it up and throw it away, but instead I open it.

Meet at the tree after school, I need to explain everything to you y/n, please

I read it and re read it then re read it again. I could still feel his eyes fixed on me. I slip in into my back pocket and proceeded to get my books. I hear Ellie calling my name so I turn around. At the corner of my eye I could see Noah still staring at me.
"Hey girl!" She says hugging me.
"Hi Ellie" I say putting on a fake smile but really feeling the need to crawl back into my bed and cry.

"Has Noah talked to you since you know everything" she says unsure how i'll react.
"No I blocked him, I don't want to talk to him"
She nods, before completely changing the subject knowing it's hard to talk about.

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Noah

As I'm standing at the lockers with Bryce and Jason, I stare at the entrance waiting for her to come in.
I want to see her face.
But every once and a while I turn back to Bryce and Jason acting like I'm part of their conversion but I actually have no clue what their talking about.
I see the entrance doors opening and there she is, y/n walking in looking beautiful as ever but also miserable. Her shoulders are tense, eyes almost puffy. I just want to go and hug but I can't, and I won't. I want to keep her safe from the darkness that covers the world, and my arms will be the blanket of comfort for when she's hurt.

I just watch her from a far admiring her. She makes eye contact with me for a brief second almost feeling my presence, I could see her suck in a breathe and walk faster to her locker. She opens her locker and spots my note, eying it for several seconds like she's contemplating to open it.
She slowly opens it and reads it what feels like an eternity, minutes go by and she's still staring down at it, before slipping it into her back pocket.
God I really need to see her, I need to explain everything. Everything, and tell her how sorry I am for how much pain I've caused her. See her like this just breaks my heart, and seeing her now for the first time in days since Bryce's, breaks my heart even more.