The Dare

Chapter 24

As I walked past all the swaying trees, I thought about how free they danced and that they don't have to worry about things in their life. All they do is dance all day long in the wind.
I heard someone running, I turned around and it was him. The last person I would want standing in front of me.
"Y/n" he whispered out of breathe.
I stand there waiting, waiting for him to talk. I don't know what to say so I keep looking into his eyes trying to figure him out.

"Did Chris tell you" I finally say
He nods licking his lips.

"Texas huh"
I nod awkwardly, not knowing how to react.
"I'm going to miss this place" I say looking around not wanting to meet his eyes.
But I can't resist, he's staring right back at me. I swallow hard wanting to leave but he keeps the conversion going.
"Y/n"
There's silence, he looks into both of my eyes trying to speak.
"Y/n I'm so sorry, for everything." His says with a shaky voice.
I feel tears building up.
"For everything. Everything I've done, sorry isn't even enough for how sorry I am."

I can't breathe, every time I take another breathe I lose more and more air. I turn around not wanting to face him anymore. To the boy who broke my heart. To the boy who made me believe in love.
I start to walk away, wanting to go home.
I feel a grasp on my wrist and I'm suddenly getting spun back around to meet his face.
"Y/n" he whispers.
"Please, you can't keep walking away"
I look down at my feet closing my eyes.
"Y/n I knew what I did was wrong, and I hate myself for doing what I did. The last six's months has been absolute hell for me. Seeing you in the hallway, without being able to talk to you, It hurts me so much.
Y/n when I'm with you you make me see the world differently, you made me fall you for you and I wasn't evening planning to, and you make me feel so happy and loved for the first time in a good while"

I tear rolls down my face, this is the Noah I missed.

"Y/n you have the most beautiful soul ever. The hands of the universe carefully crafted you from stardust.

Your my feeling of comfort, and making me feel home, that hasn't felt the same in years.

I fell in love with you y/n, it's so hard for me to put into words because I love you in ways I have never loved someone else."

I gasp quietly at what just came out of his mouth. I could feel my legs trembling underneath me.

"I cant let you go" he whispers.

He's staring at me hard now. I open my mouth trying to speak but nothing comes out.
I close my eyes trying to get the courage.

"Noah I"
I shake my head trying to get the words to spill out. Noah gives me a slow nod.

"Noah, you are the reason that I believe love is real, no one ever made me the feel the way you make me feel. But I can't do this, I can't go back to this. I can't go back to what broke my heart and broke me as a person.
To go back to the person who put me in so much pain and is still in so much pain, it's unbearable and it hurts.
It hurts Noah"

He looks down at his feet, pressing his lips together.
"Noah"
He quickly looks up to meet my eyes again. Tears filling up his eyes even more.
"I don't want to forget our memories, I just want to remember then without any pain"

He nods barely.
"I just don't want you to leave"
he's says with the most shaky and sad voice I've ever heard.

"Me neither." I reply

"But we'll go our separate ways and go on with our lives." I say with my hoarse voice.
He looks behind my shoulder avoiding my eyes.

"You'll be an actor or a chef" I say with a small laugh.

He hasn't moved.

"You'll meet the girl of your dreams" His eyes flick back to mine.

"And move into your first apartment together. You'll have a perfect family and life."

He nods again.

And that was it. The last time I ever spoke to Noah.
I walked home and cried. I cried until I fell asleep, feeling weak and tired.

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Almost 3 weeks later

Today was my last day at school. I leave tomorrow morning and I really don't want to leave. As I walked through the entrance of the schools I think about how it's the last time I'm ever stepping foot into the school, it's the last time I'll sit in my favourite class with my favourite teacher Ms Smith, I'm going to miss Chris with all my heart. I'll miss the conversations we have.
Its the last day I'll see Ellie for a long time, we planned on meeting each other throughout the year and to FaceTime.
Its also the last day I'll ever see Noah.
I'll never ever get to see his face again. I'll never forget the friendly but awkward smiles he gives me in the hallway, and me giving him one back. Il never forget how he looks at me in the hallways from a far, and me feeling his eyes on me every time. But I'll also never forget how he broke my heart.

I walk in and the first thing I do is look for him even though I shouldn't.
But he's not even here.