The Dare

Chapter 35

"Guys I'll just get a taxi home and you can stay here, I don't want to ruin-
"Y/n. I'm coming with you" Emma says.
The taxi comes and we get in. Ellie does the talking. We don't say anything to each other on the whole car ride home. I cried to myself looking out the window as Ellie held my hand.

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"Fuck"
We're sitting on the couch. "Y/n, I'm so sorry" Emma adds bringing me into a hug.
"What is wrong with him" Ellie says.
I sob into her neck. Flashbacks come back from four years ago, i sob even harder.

Ellie tells Emma to go to bed while she tucks me into bed and climbs in next to me, stroking my hair as I close my eyes trying to sleep.
The next day comes and Ellie slept beside me. On top of the duvet cover. The overwhelming emotions come back again. I breathe, trying to forget it, to clear my head. But even more flashbacks come back.

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Few days later

Ethan came back home two days ago. I'm very good at pretending I'm okay when I around him, but as soon as he leaves the apartment, or I have a shower. The tears come.

It's 6pm and I'm lying in bed, staring at the ceiling. Noah has been constantly texting me. He's been flooding me with phone calls.

After breaking my heart into a million pieces for the second time, I somehow still love him.
I wish I didn't, but I do.
I learned to love myself for being constantly loved by him, protected and unharmed in his arms. As if nothing in the world could ever hurt me again. But it's him that ended up breaking me, he was the one that did it. And my heart breaks everyday. But I would do it all over again.
Just to feel love like that again.

My phone vibrates, its most likely Noah so I don't even move. Then it vibrates again, except it's coming from Ethans nightstand. I hear Ethan in the kitchen so I crawl over the the other side of the bed and look at who's texting him. The two messages were coming from "Macy"

-hey wanna come over again tomorrow? 😘💋

-had a great last few days with you 💋😍

I scroll up more, and my jaw hangs wide open. He lied to me. He wasn't going to his family. He was...

Ethan cheated.. the man who I let inside my own apartment. To the man that sleeps in the same bed as me every night. The man who's lips were on another girls.
I walk into the kitchen where i find Ethan looking in the fridge.

"What's wrong" His eyes are now right on mine.
I turn the phone to him. His eyes dart to mine.
"Y/n-
"Ethan, who is Macy"
"I don't know who she is I-
I laugh.
"Ethan, you have no idea how worthless you make me feel sometimes"
"Y/n I actually don't know who she is"
He just lied to me. Straight to my face while looking in my eyes.
I laugh again. I scroll up to the older messages where he'd reply.
"You don't know her?.... Have you been sleeping with her Ethan?"

Turning the phone to his face again. He presses his lips together and rubs his jaw. Then slowly nods while not making eye contact.

"Get out."
He stares at me for a second then presses his eyebrows together.

"Ethan I'm not going to say it again." I say with a shaking voice.
"Get your shit.. and leave my fucking apartment."
He looked angry, he inhaled through his noise and walked out of the kitchen, and goes into the bedroom, to the wardrobe and starts to pack up his clothes.
I watch him. How did I not know.
I don't know where he's going to go, but that's not my problem.. I hope he has no where to go.
He stuffs his things in a bag and heads to the bathroom, and starts to get his stuff. He doesn't say anything. He comes out of the bathroom and walks right past me and walks down the hallway and into the kitchen. Then puts his bag on the dining table, zipping it up.
I'm numb at this point. I don't know what to feel anymore. I stand in front of him with my arms folded.

"People shouldn't just throw the words 'I love you' around like it's nothing."

Not looking away from his bag while zipping it up, he says

"Well maybe they are just words that mean nothing."
Then throws his bag over his shoulder and walks out the door.

I watch the door, then pull a seat out of the dining table and sat down. I stare at the chair in front of me, numb.

I bring my hands up to my face, rubbing my eyes. I shake my head. My head is pounding.

My eyes wander the apartment, bringing back the memories Ethan and I had. I remember when we first met, he was so different. He would bring me flowers, cook me dinner. Now... he's sleeping with a girl called 'Macy'

My eyes make it to the balcony door where I see Noah's balcony. I look in between the gaps of the railing as I'm sitting down.
Noah.
Noah's on the balcony.
He's..
He's staring right at me. I turn my head to the door, realising he had a perfect view of Ethan packing up and leaving, a view of me at the table. I turn back to him. He hasn't moved.
I can't take it anymore. I stand up to turn off the lights and go back to bed.
I instantly start crying. I curl into a ball on my side and sob until I fell asleep. I could hear messages flowing in from Noah.