Keeping up with my feelings

Chapter: 2 "Past"

"Girls!!! Dinner's ready!!!"
"Yey" the girls shouted in unison.

"So! What's up?" Ella asked
Everyone was busy eating dinner that no one answered. The dinning area was in silent mode... To break the silence, i blurted out "Have you seen Betina's wall over there?"..... Issa and Ella looked that the wall where my fingers are pointing at.

Issa gave this kind of look to us and blurted out "I think I know what to talked about this time."

Everyone looked at each other and waited for Issa to say something
following up what she just said awhile ago. And she indeed added: "let's talked about our past...crush...boyfie's if you had..."

Ella replied in return "I think that would be great. I mean we've been friends for 3 years now, yet we haven't talked about this..."

Betina agreed as well. So I guess I just have to say "alright then".

Everybody stood up, Ella hopped on the nearest sofa, Issa and I ran onto the bed and Betina had no choice but to sit on the floor (her house was carpeted and a studio type apartment).

No one wants to start first, so everyone agreed to spin a bottle and yeah! Great! Really! The bottle stopped and pointed at me. "So I guess it would be me!"

"Let me start when I was in my Sophomore year in highschool...I was actually new in school (so yes, im a transferee), everyone was very nice to me, my classmates welcomed me. Its was a co-ed school, I got along with almost everyone even the students on our higher batch and yeah even the lower batch as well. One day the classroom beside ours was in chaos, shouting, and you would hear a loud bang on the door. There wasn't a teacher at that class that time. I got pissed and lucky it was already break time for us so I decided to take a peek on the other classroom and guess what I saw, two freshman boys where actually fighting, throwing punches to one another and no one of their classmates thought of stopping them or even called for help. Great! In just a few seconds the principal of the school showed up and opened the door of the room, it was like whoa! In split seconds everyone went back to there seats as if nothing happened. Anyway, to cut the story short, the next day I met the other guy that was involve in the fight. He seems to be a good person, a friendly person...and yeap, he's good looking, with red-ish pink-ish lips, he's a bit short though (the height) his name is Polo...well anyway, as days goes by we eventually become close and then best of friends, every morning before classes starts he gives me a sweet smile and then kisses me on the cheek. It was just normal for the both of us, no malice. And then everytime he gets into trouble people in school would be looking for me...apparently Im the only person who can grab him away from a fight and he only listens to me." I pause for awhile...

Issa shouted in excitement "and then?"...

"And then we call at each other eveynight before going to bed and just discuss things that happened within the day... And personal stuffs until one night...he called me up and this time he doesn't want to talk about what we usually talk about instead he wanted to talk about this girl in school named Virginia. He told me how he finds this girl so pretty and he wanted to ask her out. And that night after we talked, I felt so weird... I couldn't sleep until I figure it out, why the hell Im so affected when Polo mentioned to me about Virginia. Great! Im jealous!... Again i pause for awhile to breath in and out...

Betina asked me "Patty, are you okay?" I said "yes".

"It's okay if you want to stop from there."

"No! Im ok! I just needed to breath, I can continue if you want?" I said.

The three girls nodded in silence of yes.

So there, the next day in school during break, He approached me with excitement and asked him "why so happy?" He answered "because..... I....just asked her out!" I didn't know what to say exactly to him and just told him "good for you!" He frowned after hearing me say that. "Why? Why are you like that? He mutter. "What do you mean?" I replied. "That tone of voice. That facial expression. As if your not happy for me bestfriend?" I don't know what to say so I just stood up and told him that I'll be going back to my class now.....

Days... Weeks... Months... had passed by and the usual routine every night is suddenly gone. I couldn't sleep, why does it hurt me? Why do i get jealous? Is it because I like him and Im scared to confront him. Now, i need to bear the pain that I guess its too late to have him more than bestfriend because he's with her now. Their relationship lasted for about 4 months until one day he didn't showed up in school, no one knew, even her girlfriend that keeps on asking me where the hell is he. Hours before dismissal, his cousin Viv and His Aunt went to school and talked to the principal. Until the two left, the principal called me to her office and told me that Polo isn't coming back in school and just like that my heart shattered into pieces.. I wanted to cry, but no. I have to be strong. I didn't mention it to his girlfriend instead I run out of the school and go straight home. I tried to call him but i guess he changed his number and from that on I haven't had a communication with him anymore....

"That was heavy... I almost cried, Patty. Im sorry it happened to you." Issa hugged me.

"Yeah, that's okay. I think he's also a part of my past now." I replied.

So everybody, shared their stories... And its getting dark outside, time to go home now. "Who's riding with me?" Of course, Issa and Ella. Both went here via cab.. "Bye Betina! Thanks for today!" Mwah!
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