Keeping up with my feelings

Chapter: 4 "Day dreaming"

Back to reality...

"So short! This semestral break!" Ella said in a loud tone.

"Shhh... So loud! By the way, you owe us a story!" I said.

"What story?" Ella replied.

"You and your guy! What's his name?" Issa asked.

"Oh! Dave." "Well, it went good." "Im happy!" "But I don't want to label my feelings for him." She uttered.

"Label?" I asked in confusion.

"Yeap. I mean I don't want to tell myself that I like him. Im quite scared to feel this way again." She said.

From a far, we saw Betina running towards us and shouted "Get your butts up, you don't want to be late for our first class today."

We suddenly jumped out of our chairs and run as fast as we can just to reach the classroom on time. Which we did....minute left before class starts!
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At class... I don't know if I was focusing or what... I just heard my three silly girlfriends giggling... I looked at them, and they were actually laughing at me. "Why?" I asked. "You are day dreaming again, Patty!" "What are you thinking of or may I say, WHO are you thinking of?" Betina uttered.

"Me? Day dreaming?" My face blushed... "Nah! That can't be!"

"Really? How would you explain you smiling and staring at the wall?" Issa said to me.

"Uh--uh--hmmm! Fine! Yes, you caught me day dreaming again!"

"Are you actually thinking of Polo?"

I did not say something but I just moved my head sidewards as if saying NO!

The girls says "whatever you say ,Patty!" "We know you!"

"Okay fine. You girls got me there!" "Yes, I was kinda thinking of him." "Happy?!" I said.

"Why thinking about him?" Ella asked.

"No. I just thought of what if we cross paths again..what could possibly can happen to us..."

Rang! Rang! Rang!

Whoa! First class just ended.

Seriously! Still staring at me? Why?

"Nothing." "Let's get going.. We still have 2 classes to attend to for today.
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Finally its dismissal. Time to go home and study for our orals tomorrow. Issa and I are riding together since we live near to each other while Ella and Betina drive their own cars.. So its Monday today (Monday-wednesday-friday), Issa is driving her car and I get to drive mine every Tuesday and Thursday only...sometime Friday, whenever Issa's Mom borrows her car.
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"I'll call you after I nap and take a shower." Issa told me.

"Alright!" I answered back.
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Toot-toot! Toot-toot!
My phone beeped. There's message from Luigi, a classmate from highschool, suddenly invited me to his birthday celebration friday night. Without any hesitation, I answered "count me in! See you on your birthday!"

I sat on my bed and thought of what I just answered... I accepted Luigi's invitation... He's also close to Polo... Would he be there? Shoot! What would I do?? Why do I feel this feeling again? Butterflies on my stomach!!! Questions suddenly popped unto my mind... Would he be there? Should I go? Would he still remember me? Would he still hug and kiss me on the cheek? Is he coming with somebody else? And a lot more!!!! What is happening to me? I need to talk to someone right now!! I hope Issa would call like right now!!!!!!

I close my eyes and took a deep breath and finally my phone rings!

I answered right away!

"Issa!" "Oh my God!" "Tell me I did the right decision?"

"Whoa! Hold on! What are you talking about?" Issa told me on a soft voice.

"I received a text message from a highschool friend inviting me on his party this Friday night. And without any hesitation I said yes." I answered Issa.

"Then what's wrong with that?....." She replied. Just before I answered, she cutted me and said "Oh no! No way! Don't tell me this highschool friend is also the friend of????"

"Yeap!" I replied.

"Oh... Sounds interesting!" She uttered.

"Interesting huh???" "Why on earth it would be interesting Issa?"

"Because.... You'll get to see him again?!?" "You did the right decision girl!" "I mean, even if you don't tell the truth to us, I personally feel that you still like....love him. Am I right Patty?"

I shut my mouth for about 20 seconds...

"Got yah! Silence means YES, hunny!" Issa giggled

"Hey, how am I supposed to answer right away if Im still feeling confused?".

"Confused???" "Here, do you still feel the butterfly thing on your stomach everytime you hear of his name?"

"Uh, yes! I think?!?" I answered.

"It's a sign that you still have a thing with him. And you just don't know how to let it out. Stop keeping it to yourself. You have to face it, once and for all Patty. You no longer highschool, we'll be graduating soon in College, yet you still act like your still in highschool. Grow up Patty!"

"Thanks for that, Issa! I think I really needed that badly. One question for me is how will I go there and face him once and for all..."

"You can do it, Patty! Condition yourself first hunny, condition yourself...before doing or saying something."

"I love you, Issa! Your the best girl friend ever!"

"Love yah too! Oh well, got to go! See you tomorrow!"

"Yeah! Goodnight, Issa!"
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