𝚃𝙾𝚇𝙸𝙲 ⭑ 𝒗.𝒅.𝒂

𝑻 𝑬 𝑵 ♱

Less than three hours after Thomas left I grab my phone, ready to text Victoria. Talking to Thomas felt good, and I think it is good that I'm going to talk to Victoria about all this. "Do you think I should text her, mom and dad?", I say, towards the picture. Is it weird that I sometimes talk to the picture of my parents when I am just desperate? They don't answer, and I know that, but in that way it still feels like they are here. Long thinking about what to say, my fingers just start typing.

"Hi Vic, I'm sorry, I don't have more to say, I'm so sorry it went this way, I never wanted it to happen like this"

I could tell her the whole story right now, over messages, but that just seemed rude. Like I don't wanna see her or something, and that is definitely not what I want her to think.

"Can I maybe come over tonight? Only if you are okay with this."

From the corner of my eye I saw Victoria was online, and that made my heart run. What if she hates me forever? I just want her to know that I didn't meant it this way. And my head started thinking about the feelings I had when I was around her, because it was definitely something.

"Sure, come at 8".

As soon as I saw that messages I sighed, in relief, but also nervous. Nervous because I will have to explain everything to her, with my lack of ability to speak out my feelings. My eyes red the word 'eight' again, and turn away to the black and white clock on my wall, which was saying it's already ten minutes past seven.

"Where the hell are you heading towards?", Maddison asks. Ten minutes later after Victoria texted me back, and I haven't eaten yet, I'm wearing a pink tracksuit, and my hair is a total mess. But right now I don't care much about that. "I'm going to talk to Victoria", searching for my coat, I place three kisses on the cheeks from my little siblings and Maddison smiles, giving me a well-done look. "Don't come home late", she yells when I open the door to run away. "You are not my mom", I yell back, hearing her chuckle, and I slam the door closed.

The closer I get to Victoria and the band their house, the more nervous I become. The knot in my stomach grows and I swallow every ten second. The house comes closer and than is the moment to shut down my scooter, and walk towards the door. According to my phone it's 7:58, so I decide to wait for two more minutes, when I hear the door opening. It's Ethan, and he is smiling towards me. "Where is she?", in one second I lost my nerves and I just really want to see and talk to Victoria.

"She is in her room, I bet you know where that is", he winks, letting me into the house. I have no idea if Thomas and Damiano are home too, but I immediately run upstairs, straight to Victoria her room. Before stepping into her room I stop, to take just a really deep breath. Than I take the door handle down and step in, seeing Victoria sitting on her bed, with her eyes on mine.

"Hey Vic", I say, looking quilty. "Hey Olivia", she says, swallowing and signing to me that I'm allowed to sit down on the bed next to her. I take a deep breath and try to think about were I'm gonna start talking. "I'm sorry Victoria, I'm so sorry, I-I never meant it to happen like this", I stop, looking desperate in her beautiful eyes, and almost drown in them. "I'm just scared, that if we start dating, I'm gonna fuck up like I did now, I'm just a toxic slut".

After those words came out of my mouth, I saw tears rolling down Victoria her cheek and she quickly wiped it away. "You are not, you are so not", she said, and within a tiny second she leaned over me, and I felt her lips on mine. She gave me chills, and I never would doubt about kissing her back. Although we were the same height, Victoria acted like she was the tiny one. Her one leg moved over me and she sat on my lap, with her hand on my cheeks, so I moved my hand towards her back, giving her chills.

"You have two options, you fuck me or you leave, you decide", she said, pushing me backwards and making me fall on her bed, with her hanging above me. I didn't have to think long about that question and pushed her body on mine, to feel her smooth skin. Her hand is hanging in my face, and her lips trace over my neck, unclosing my blouse with her other hand. My nails were digging into her shoulder, making her moan by that feeling.

When my blouse landed on the ground, she pulled off her own shirt, making me gasps by the view of her beautiful naked upper body. She giggled, and I thought about who the toxic one was right now, probably still me. The way her lips were tracing all over my naked body, leaving purple spots everywhere, it was rough. And somehow I felt that she was still angry as fucked, but she just couldn't get enough of me, and knowing that made me enjoy this even more.

When I saw her pulling down her pants, following by mine, I got up, lifting the bassist. She wrapped her legs around my body and sucked my cheekbone. I walk towards the first wall I see, and push her hard against it, making her moan in pain and pleasure. I was maybe toxic and pussy at the same time, but I was still strong. While holding Victoria between me and the wall, with only one arm, my other started ripping off her slip.

My fingers hit her aching spot and she moaned, load enough to make the whole neighbourhood hear it. She trows her head back and moans load, while sweat is starting to appear on my forehead. Her body shaked, and I knew she climaxed when her moans got a little sloppier. In one movement, she pushes me away from her, jumping on the ground out of my grip, walking towards me, until I felt the bed behind me.

Two hands pushes me on it, and she almost dived between my thight, pulling down my slip. The soft sheets were under me, and I felt lips kissing between my thights, making me moan in pleasure. I felt her breathing against my sensitive spot. As soon as she literally started licking me out, I moaned out, grabbing the sheets, to make sure I wasn't gonna scream, but to be honest I was close to scream her name.  

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believe me, hate and love at the same time, are just wow....