Weeks went by. Weeks eventually turned into months. I spent most of my sleepless nights having pointless sex with Tony. Yes, it's wrong. But I stopped caring a while ago.
Most of the time I was either drunk or with the girls. When I was with them, I was just remind of how lonely I am. Sam is happily married, Adia is engaged. Ren and Logan are taking things slow. I can imagine why. The two are the youngest out of all of us.
"Alex, we're going out. Want to come?" Tony asked, giving me a lighthearted smile.
It's been hard these few days. He's noticed. I've been having dreams lately. They felt so real. I'd wake up and the feeling of his lips on mine still lingered. Sometimes I felt his arms wrap around my waist. Tony has held me while I cried, which would be most nights.
"No. I'm gonna look for a job." I said.
He had a look in his eye that hit me the wrong way. It was pity. I hate it. It angered me so much. In no way should I get a pity party. Bad things happen. People need to learn that. I'm holding up okay, so obviously it isn't that bad.
I picked up my laptop, and scanned through the open local jobs. The band was on hold for a bit. We just finished our last tour for a few months. I couldn't handle singing the songs I wrote while sitting next to him. Most of them were based on our memories. It was all I could do to remain stable on stage.
An opening at a music store caught my attention. That was apparently our thing. Most of us worked at music stores on our free time. Seeing how their store didn't have any openings, I'd be perfectly fine settling for this.
I picked up my phone and dialed the number.
"Hello?" It sounded like a male on the other end of the line.
"Hey, I was calling about your job opening."
"Ah, yes. If you're interested, you can come in for an interview in about an hour?" He sounded hopeful.
"An hour?" I questioned. "That's awfully quick." I said with a chuckle.
"We're kind of desperate and extremely short handed." He said sheepishly.
"Okay. Sounds good to me."
He gave me the address, and I ran up stairs to take a shower.
I haven't really tried to look for any jobs. Though it dawned on me last night that I might be getting on Tony's nerves. I don't pay for anything at all. Besides the little income we get from selling merch, I don't have any money. So I'm really hoping I get this. Plus, it's a distraction from the thoughts.
It wasn't long before I was dressed and pulling out of the drive. I scanned over the address and arrived at a little corner store not too far from the beach.
The place looked pretty nice. There wasn't much variety from your typical music store though. Posters hanging in the window and discount signs taped in any open area.
"Hi, I'm Jeremy McKinnon." He held out his hand to shake. "You must be Alex."
"I am." I said, giving my trademark smile.
"If I would've known it was you, I would've went ahead and said you have the job."
"I'm guessing you're a fan?" I asked with a laugh.
"You don't even know." He had a large smile on his face.
I'll admit, it gets tiring having someone ask for your autograph wherever you go. But, it's absolutely amazing. I'm just surprised we have such a fan. He looks like a band member himself. He had a medium-size black gauge in both ears and tattoos covering a portion of his body. He wasn't too bad on the eyes either.
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The day consisted of organizing CD's and selling maybe 3 vinyl discs to nerdy looking guys. I always thought the cute guys liked vinyl. What a bummer.
Right now, I'm doing what I do best. Sitting on the laptop.
"Alex, stop reading for once and come outside." Sam said, snapping the laptop shut.
"Effort." I whined.
"Life requires effort." She grabbed my legs and pulled me off the couch.
"But why."
"But why do you whine so much." She mocked.
"I know!" I agreed. "I need to stop."
"Then stop."
"But,"
"Effort, I know." She finished my sentence.
"Asshole." I mumbled.
"Excuse me?" She mimicked a melodramatic white girl.
I smirked, and ran out the back door, falling immediately. Fucking sand. The only bad thing about living on the beach. That and my clumsiness isn't a good mix.
I hate filler chapters .-.
There shouldn't be many more fillers, then things get interesting again. I promise.
