Bucky X Reader || Never Do That Again (COMPLETED)

Chapter 10

After a long pause you practically threw yourself on him, squeezing him as tight as you could "I've missed you so much" his voice whispered in your ear and you were just happy to be in his arms once more. You looked to his shoulder and whispered "your arm.." Beneath your breath.

"Im- we're sorry y/n" Steve was the first to speak from the group, everyone's eyes blatantly avoiding yours. You gathered yourself to your feet with Bucky's help and walked until you were standing directly in front of Steve.

You lifted your arm and slapped him across his face as hard as you could. He let out a small grunt but said nothing- he knew he deserved it.

You moved to Tony who was standing next to Steve "please don't slap me". You sighed- God you wanted to, you really wanted to. But you decided not to; instead you shook your head in disappointment. Tony could see how angry you were and for the first time refrained from making a sly remark or any type of joke.

"Did you know?" You had moved over to Natasha, your voice low and brittle. She looked you in the eyes but remained silent. "Did. You. Know?" You repeated, slightly louder and more taut.

"Yes" Nat's eyes flashed to the floor "we all did". You scanned the room as everyone's expressions shifted to guilt. "great" you scoffed, rolling your eyes. You walked out of the room, slamming the doors as you went, until you ended up in your bedroom left alone with your thoughts.

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Some time had passed and you had managed to calm down enough to think straight. Of course you were still mad at pretty much everyone who knew, therefore you had not left your room for the fear of having to speak to them.

Just then, you heard a knock at your door. You groaned, refusing to get up "fuck off". Clearly they didn't know what that meant because the door creaked open and Bucky walked in. "Charming" he smiled, closing the door behind him sending the room back into dimness.

"Hey Buck" you sighed, moving up the bed to give him space to sit down. You were mad at him but no where near as much as the others. "Doll, I want to apologize, for everything" his hand rested on your thigh.

"Why didn't you come and find me?"

"I wanted to- more than anything. As soon as I escaped Hydra and became myself again" he paused, reliving the images of the Winter Soldier "I- I tried to find you. Steve found me first and he told me what had happened to you. He told me about Wanda wiping your memories and by then it was too late"

You felt his hand go heavy as if he was being beaten down. "You had all this time to find me, bring me back, why did you wait? Why now?"

"I'm sorry y/n... I guess the truth is, I was scared. Scared you wouldn't remember me at all. I don't think I would've been able to live knowing what we had, but you didn't... I- Steve, he was the one that forced me to come to the compound. I didn't want to. I didn't want to see you without you remembering. But I did, and I'm thankful to Bruce for bringing you back to me".

He leaned in and planted a small kiss on your forehead. "Never do that to me again" you looked up at him half smiling.

"Do what?!" Bucky frowned, folding his arms. "Die on me. And not come and find me after" you rolled your eyes fully smiling.

"No promises" Bucky laughed, wrapping his arms around you and hugging you tight. You gazed down at his metal arm, running your fingers over the grooves. He flinched and removed it from your body. "What's wrong?" You looked at him, concerned.

He stayed quiet, almost holding himself, his head dropped as he tucked his metal arm behind his back.
"Hey, it's ok" you gently touched his shoulder and trailed your hand down to his "is it your arm?" He nodded before quietly responding "I hate it. I can barely control it sometimes. People stare at me like I'm different" he looked up at you "you don't think I'm different, do you?"

Instantly you squeezed his hand, pulling his head towards your chest "of course not! The arm doesn't define you. I can see past it and all I see is my James" the mention of his official name made him smile a little- you didn't call him that often but you knew he secretly liked it. "If it means anything, I quite like the arm, it suits you" you both laughed as you felt him relax in your arms and soon he was back to himself.

You layed all your weight on him, sending you both down on the bed. Your lips crashed together, both craving one another. "It's been too long" he whispered in your ear before flipping you over so he was on top. "Guess we'll have to make up for it then" you smirked, removing Bucky's shirt. "Ooh" his voice was deep and husky as he trailed kisses down your neck and chest.

The passion and longing you had for each other grew wild as clothes flew through the air and the bed began creaking. You gazed over Buck's body, taking everything in before looking back at his arm. "Could be a new toy?" You giggled, pointing to it. He looked down then back to you with a devilish grin "want to see what it can do?"

You nodded in the most submissive way as Bucky hesitated, but then wrapped his fingers around your neck, gently at first. "That the best you got?" You smirked as you felt the metal tighten slightly. All of a sudden you felt his other hand move down to your stomach, inching closer and closer.

"Mmm" your eyes fluttered shut as you spread your legs for him. Soon, what you both had been craving for years had been fulfilled.