If Kisses Should Win

Part eight

I sat in disbelief. He had a wife and kid?! SLAM! I sprang up and shoved everything back into the envelope then back into his hiding spot. I slammed the drawer shut and read back to the bed.
I heard his steps coming down the hall. I jumped into the bed and covered up. He opened the door just as I was settling in.
"Still not asleep?" He walked over to the opposite side of the bed and slid in beside me.
"No...I have trouble falling asleep in a new place sometimes." I fake yawned.
"Oh...sorry I shouldn't have pressured you into staying."
"It's alright...I'll be fine." I snuggled down further into the soft blankets. A couple minutes passed in silence yet I could tell he was still sitting up and he hadn't turned the lamp off.
"How far along are you?" He spoke finally. I knew that was going to come up.
"Around 2 months...probably more like 2 and a half." He thought for a second.
"October..." Yes dimwit you got me pregnant in October!
"It was the first time I came to that bar you work at...you looked so sexy...in that uniform-"
"Yes yes yes that is so wonderful also yes it was that first time you dickwad. You got me pregnant the first time we did it." I had flipped around to face him now. He chuckled as I pushed him away. We sat in a comfortable silence for a couple minutes.
"Will you be able to do this?" I sat up in bed.
"What?"
"Will you be able to help me with this kid? I'm going to keep it. I can't bring myself to get rid of it so I'm going to have it." I was sitting straight up looking him in eyes. He need to tell me right now if he's going to help.
"I...I'm not sure..." Just as I thought. I huffed and threw my hands up.
"Honestly! Why did I even get my hopes up?! For some reason I thought that just maybe you might wanna help!" I got up from the bed and Elliot followed.
"Hey! Listen just lay back down. I'll help ok!"
"No! I'm leaving..." I opened the door and started to walk out. He quickly followed after me.
"Dex! Stop and listen for a second! Why do you always do this?!" I stopped dead in my track just at the top of the stairway.
"What!? Why do I always do what?!" He sighed.
"You overreact to everything...you are so sensitive!" I raised an eyebrow at him. Really?! Was I really acting like that?
"Ha...wow."
"Wait Dex...don't leave..." he reached for me but I slapped his hands away. I walked down the stairs and right out the door. Was I really acting like that? I stepped out onto the sidewalk and the cold wind hit me in the face. Fuck...I still don't have any shoes. I made my way further down the side walk wrapping my arms around myself. Small flakes of snow began to fall around me.
Maybe I was being to sensitive....but he changes his mood every few seconds so I have no idea if he wants the baby or not if he wants to help or not or if he actually gives a shit!
Maybe it's because of that woman and child. Maybe she won't commit because he's scared that might happen again.
"AGH stop thinking about it!" The cold pavement on my feet hurt. I started to pick up the pace walking faster and faster. Not only is it freezing and I have no shoes or coat it's night time and I'm guessing this is a pretty nice neighborhood but what happens when I get around my neighborhood?
I noticed an all black car with tinted windows coming up beside me. I was ready to run but I knew that annoying voice.
"Dex...are you seriously going to walk back to your house without shoes or a coat?! Get in I'll take you home." I kept walking. I didn't want to get in with him.
"Dex seriously! Please just get in it's freezing out! What happens if you get sick! That won't be good for the baby!" Here we go again, acting like he cares sooo much!
"No! I don't want to get in a car with you!"
"Why not!?"
"Because I don't know what you are thinking and you won't tell me! I want to know if you what to
Be apart of my baby's life! BUT YOU WONT TELL ME! It's yes or no!" He stopped the car completely and got out. He came storming around the car looking me dead in the eyes. He walked up to me slamming me against the wall. The grip he held onto me with was anything but nice.
"I don't know Dex! I don't know if I can be a father to this kid! I'm the fucking CEO of a goddamn company! I spend all my time making sure my mother and father are happy with me! I want to be there with you and the baby but I don't know if I can! Do you know how that feels?! Your parents making you feel as if nothing you do is ever good enough?!" He was so close to my face. His face red from a mixture of the cold and anger. He was breathing  heavily still looking me in the eyes.
"You...you're hurting me." His eyes widened slightly and he let go of my arms.
"I'm...I'm sorry...." He fell back against the car and covered his face with his hands.
"I do know how it feels..." he looked up at me with a questioning look.
"I know how it feels to feel like you never do anything good enough for your parents. Both of my older brothers run successful businesses. And my older sister is one of the most talented painters I think I have ever seen. She got a full ride to some super fancy art college in London. LONDON!! Yet here I am the youngest child who is pregnant at 20 and hasn't even started college yet. The college that I barely managed to squeeze into. My siblings are all so smart and talented...what happened to me?" Tears started to form in my eyes.
"My older brother is supposed to have the company...but he refused...he wanted to go have a life I guess...so my parents gave it to me. The screwup of the family. I do fine at my job but my parents want perfect. I can't be perfect. Now they are trying to force me into a marriage, with a women I might add, that I don't want." I chuckled. Elliot looked at me and laughed too.
"Look at us, two screwups." I tried to hold in my laugh but as soon as I looked back to Elliot with both started to hysterically laugh.
"Come on" Elliot rounded to car and got back in on the drivers side. I hesitated for a second then opened the passenger door.
"I'll take you home." I smile and nodded. I think...we can do this.

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Hello!! Again this chapter is a little bit longer than my usuall chapters which have around 900 words and this one ended with 1,226! Hope you are enjoying this story so far! Bye for now!