summer experience // machine gun kelly

18.

i woke up the next morning due a knock on my door. "yeah come in" i mumbled. baze came in with two coffees and sat on the ground in front of my bed.
"i cant sleep anymore and everyone else is still passed out." he said.  i hide my head under the blanket. "at least you brought coffee with you" i mumbled. i sat up a bit and he gave me the coffee. i gave him my pillow.
we stared talking. we talked about morning routines, holidays and sport. i told him that i hate sport but i need to do more for my back pain. later i thanked him again for letting me staying with them. "i will try to find a friend today who can pick me up" i said.
"since you have a job now you can stay till the end of the festival" he smiled half laughing.
"i dont want to annoy y'all but as long i am here and you need help call me" i said.
baze told me they are having their gig today and we talked more about it. he suggested i go with them and help him a bit. we heard the others outside and decide to get up.  baze left my room and i got dressed. i decided to wear a long tight back jeans and a ripped shirt. i walked outside and sat on the chair to the others.
baze came out and saw how done they all look and looked at me. we both started laughing.

kells pov

i was sad that liz left. i wanted to help but i dont wanted to give her money or something. a lot of people just like me because i'm famous. i could feel liz was different but still.
after slim and i said goodbye to her  we went back. i had an important Skype call. after it i just wanted to stopped my head thinking. i took my j and went to rook and dub. we decided to go to a party here. ash still had work to do for tomorrow and baze joined her. we others got ready and left. at the party i first bought a bottle Hennessy. i took my j and the bottle and walked to the others. here were a lot of girls already around us. i took the bottle and take more big sips. i wanted to get wasted. i wanted to stop feeling. i wanted to hide for my inner demons.
the party went on and we took a few girls with us. they were all annoying and trying to catch my attention but i was used to it.
back at the bungalow one girl jumped on my lap. she tried to kiss my neck and moved her ass on my lap. i just wanted to smoke, get higher and chill while she was fighting for my attention.
suddenly i heard slim jelling liz is her. what how i was wondering. and than i saw her. i looked at her a few times but i was to high to stand up or get the girl off of me. i fetl bad. why was she here? why no one told me? and i hated that she saw me like this.
later on rook ran to the toilet to throw up. the girl on me took my hand and we run after. slim, two girls and i stand at the bathroom door to watched at rook. but then i heard her voice. i saw liz and baze sitting in the bathtub. since when she smokes? and why not with me i asked myself. i hear her saying she wanted to go to bed now and baze hugged her really tight, she had her head on his neck for a moment. was i jealous? seeing them so close together hurt me. she stood up and asked if we can step to side. i looked at her and she at me but she only said "can i?" and moved with her hands. she said nothing else to me, not goodnight, nothing. i stepped aside and she walked pass me.

at her next morning i felt like shit. andre told me i had to get up. in the kitchen i saw baze leaving liz room. what was going on, it was early why was he at her room? did he spent the night there? i was super pissed inside. i walked out and sat down. i didn't wanted to speak with anyone so i picked up my phone as if i was busy.
few moment later liz came out and sat down. baze followed and stand next to her. they looked at each other and laughed. that hurts.