summer experience // machine gun kelly

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later as i went to the bathroom i saw him sitting on the ground. he was sharking very bad. next to him was a bag with white powder and pills.
"wtf is that colson?" i asked shocked, kneeing down next to him.
"nothing, leave me alone liz" he said. he sounded like he was crying. "hell no i dont leave you alone, how many drugs did you take?" i asked.
"nothing liz nothing" he almost screamed.
i hugged him very close. we sat there for an hour in silence.
"thanks for staying" he spoke up. "anytime" i said.
"even the silence that i have with you is okay" he mumbled. i kissed his forehead.
"i guess you're disgusted of me now"he said. "no no why should i?" i looked at him. "idk its not easy with me and now you have to see me like this. i saw you with the guy at lunch and you looked super happy. thats what you deserve. you deserve the best time here" he goes on.
"huh you mean andy? he is a band member of a band i really love" i said.
"nah not andy, i know him. there was someone i dont know and the way you looked at him and he on you. im sure you would be good together" he looked at the ground. 
i couldnt help but i took his head and placed a soft kiss on his lips. he looked at me and i put our forehead together. "you're wrong" i whispered. he placed his hand on my head and kissed me again. our lips went in sync.

my phone interrupted us. we just smiled at each other and i got up and went to my phone in my room.
it was ash checking again, she also said if kells feel better and i want we can go to a party tonight. i told her everything is good and we will look later. we hang up.
i heard the flush and met kells in the kitchen. "i flushed the drugs down. sorry you saw this" he said.
"its fine im glad you did" i smiled and he kissed me again.
"kells stop. pls tell me you dont took drugs today" i didn't want him kissing me under drug influence.
"no i didn't. i swear" he said. he kissed me and pushed me against the kitchenette. i let out a soft moan against his lips. he bit my lip "good this feels so good" he breathed out and started kissing my neck. his hands went from my waist to my ass. he squeezed it and pushed his body more against mine. i could feel him growing. he picked me up and placed me on the kitchenette. he tried to pull up my top.
i breathed out "fu** kells". he bit bit in my bottom lip.
"shit we need to stop" i moaned.
"no it feels so good" he moaned against my lips.
"kells-" he stopped and looked at me. he smiled, placed a soft short kiss on my lips and embraced me close.
i mumbled "im sorry" in his chest.
"its all fine lissy" he smiled at me. "i just have a huge boner now" he laughed and i rolled my eyes.
i was glad he understood, i dont wanted to be to fast with him. i was still scared that everything gets completed and i was a normal girl and he a famous artist.
we went to his room, cuddled under the blanket and choose the next movie. he felt asleep