summer experience // machine gun kelly

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back at the bungalow kells stormed into his room. as i arrived everyone sat outside. ash asked how it was at the zoo. i guess she hadn't saw kells running his to his room.
"can we talk later?" with that i walked straight into the bungalow.into kells room.

"what?" he screamed at me.
"wtf is wrong with you?" i screamed back.
"whats wrong with me? i told you how good last night was and a second later you said yes to an other dude who asked you out?" he screamed.
we screamed at each other until he left the room. as i walked out i couldn't see him anymore. everyone was looking at me and i heard them whisper "shit". i walked in my room but baze followed me.
"i dont want to talk rn" i said almost crying. what was kells thinking? just because i was invited to a party by marc doesn't mean i start something with him.
baze and i sat on the ground and he hugged me.
"i guess everyone knows now. we could hear you both outside" he said low. 
"i think i should leave".
"no liz i am sure you both just need to talk. you are good for him. i saw it yesterday" he said.
we sat in silence till we heard kells and slims voice in the kitchen.
"i think i should go out" baze said and we got up. he left and i stood at the door seeing kells.
again tears stood in my eyes.
slim saw me "yo i let you both alone" and went out side.
kells and i stood counterpart alone in the kitchen.
"fu** liz i'm sorry" he slowly walked up to me, watching my reaction.
he embraced me "i know i fu**** up. shit. can we please finally talk".
i nod and we walked in my room.
we both know our time together is timed. my biggest issue was that he was famous and rich.
due my past i was very scared of what people could think of me. the last thing i wanted was being that girl that get smashed by a famous person and people think it just because the money. kells knows that.
"look i cant change who i am. i know going out with me isn't easy but i want to spend the last days with you. you calm me down, around i dont have the feeling of needing drugs. you didn't knew me before and i love that. people talk so much shit about me and everyone thinks they knows me but a shit do they. i often play a role and act how people see and want me but thats not me. can we please enjoy the few days together" he tried to explain.
i told him my side of being scared to be with him, he totally understood it. the most important thing is that we need to talk before everything end in a fight and that we need to trust each other. we decided to try it. but we made one rule if someone of us kiss someone else or more we end it and get back to friends. pure honesty.
it was a long conversation but it was it worth. he placed a kiss at my lips and we stood up.
as we walked out to the others, he walked before me with a big smile and took my hand. everyone cheered and clapped.
i put my hand on my face and turned around "god that so embarrassing".
kells laughed and embraced me.  we sat down and talked to the others.