summer experience // machine gun kelly

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the alarm goes off. i wish it would be a dream but it was the reality.

kells woke up and sat at the end of the bed. he didnt said good morning or anything. he stood up and walked into the bathroom.
it was weird. we had an hour left till the uber would come.
i stood up and walked into the kitchen to make some coffee.
kells walked in. i looked at him "you good?".
"yeah" he answered not really looking at me.
"coffee is ready in a few if you want" i said.
"okay thank you".
"you wanna eat something?" i asked.
"nah im good" he answered.
there was no emotions in his answers. i think it was his way to get finish with saying good bye.
"alright" i said walking pass him. i wasn't mad, i respect it if it was his way to handle the situation.
"lissy, stop" he said. i turned around. "sorry for being an asshole" he said and embraced me.
"its all good" i answered and embraced him back. i was very sad.
we let go of each other and i went to my bedroom to get dressed. i only put a joggers on and stayed in my shirt.
kells asked me if we want to drink the coffee in the balcony together. i agreed. we laughed a lot.
but sadly it was time for him to leave.
"you have everything?" i asked.
"yes i think" he said and looked down to the ground. i hugged him deeply. he whispered how much fun he had and that he is thankful to spent the time with me here.
"you really mean much to me. i thank you for everything. i have the feeling i truly could be my self around you. i'm sure in an other universe things will be better for us" he looked deep in my eyes, kissed me one last time picked up his bag and left my apartment.
i closed the door and started to cry.
the last two week were an up and down but it was an incredible experience. i made a lot memory's, found new sides of me. even if a lot of things will get complicated for me in the next weeks, i was glad to have good memories to think off.
shelly came over and we looked for jobs and stuff. i was glad to be not alone. she left in the evening.
 i walked in my bedroom and i saw a shirt and a hoodie on my bed. it was kells. on there was a est XX bandana with little letter. he was the cutest person i ever met and he was right maybe in an other universe things will be better for us. i got ready for the night. my bed still smells like him.

kells pov.

i left the festival with liz. i thought it was that what i really needed. get away from everything, form everyone who knows me, from all the fame, drugs and girls.
i loved to see some more of her life. she hasn't an easy life but she was strong.
we had a lot fun. she told me how much that festival experience meant to her. she found a new side of her self. due us she often jumped over her shadow of fears and anxiety. she also helped me to understand a side of me i didn't knew before. i wish our life weren't that different. but they were.  i felt really good to forget all the fame for a while. even the evening with her friend was super funny. everything was so simple around them.
sadly we came to the point were i had to leave. i acted like an asshole in the morning. i didn't know how to handle the situation. i was hard to leave her. she came at the right moment in my life. she helped me out off a dark place. she was special, she was an angle in the white.
i realized my behavior. i said sorry and we had a great morning. before left, i left her one of mine shirts and hoodie. and i gave her finally the bandana that i wanted to give her since the first week with a letter that i wrote days ago while she was sleeping next to me. 
it was hard to leave her house. i got on the airplane and i knew, when i step out i am back in my life. ash was going to wait for me to pick me up.
i learned a lot in the last two weeks and it wasn't only lissy's summer experience. it was mine too.

liz pov.

over the next few weeks i message a bit with baze and rook. i sometimes phoned with kells. but it got more decreased over the time. we all were back in our lifes and that was okay.
i found a job at my university that matched with my studies. i ended the contact to tim and the whole group and found some new friends. i still had shelly on my side anytime. kells was right, believe in your dreams and you are strong to reach them.
life isn't easy but it always find a way to get great even if it dont seems like this in the moment. never give up XX.