summer experience // machine gun kelly

20.

i walked to the sea and sat down for a while.
i really liked kells thats why his words really hurt me. i was thinking of if i should stay or call my ex to pick me up since i dont know who would pick me up.
my phone rang. it was ash, she told me i should come to the stage, she needs my help. i got up to go there. as i arrived everyone was there.
"liz good you are here. we are going to to soundcheck now can you help them with the instruments?" she asked. "sure i can" i said. rook waved me by. i walked up to him and he asked me if i can help him. he explained me what i have to do and i did it. "and you good?" he asked "kells can be a dick sometimes dont take that personal. we all think you should stay with us if you still like".
i still smiled and helped him. after that dub asked if i can help him to get drinks and we went to a bar. i was still surprised how big the stage were and how many instruments they have. dub laughed as i told him this. "you really dont know the band or?"
"no i never expected they were so famous. i promised to not searched on the internet and you all barley mentioned the name around me".
dub laughed "i guess thats why kells like you so much".
"hu sure, he really likes me. we all could see that this morning" i said sarcastically.
"he didnt meant it bad, i guess he truly likes you otherwise he wouldn't care what happens between you and baze" he said.
"there happened nothing between me and baze" i started to explain. "yeah i know baze and kells fought and baze told him the same. guess he sees you kinda as little sister." he said.
i was happy to hear this i really liked baze and i thought he could be a super good friend.

we finished everything and talked about going to the bar lounge but ash told me to bring the paper to the stage real quick.
i did and ran into kells. "sorry" i mumbled and wanted to walk pass him. he took my hand "liz. i am truly sorry for what i said to you this morning. i wish I haven't." he looked at my eyes but i looked at the ground. "its okay" i said.
"no its not. i could tell you many reasons why i said this but they doesn't matter because i hurt you and they are not an excuse" he really meant to apologize. "i am okay with you staying the whole time with us but the truth is i am a broken person and i am scared to hurt you again with my behavior"
"see, i never experienced all of this happens. i thought i will have a great time with my friends but instead i stay with you all. i dont know why i deserve this but i am thankful. if you all want me to stay i would love to make that experience. you was a dick to me this morning and i hope this will not happen again but you can do what ever you want. i am not here to stop you all from doing  what you ever do and i dont have the right to." 
he interrupted me "look i really like you but-"
i interrupted him "nothing happened between me and baze, same with you and me. you own me nothing. go on with everything you want to do as long you dont say those mean things to me again".  i smiled at him and brought the paper to the stage.