summer experience // machine gun kelly

47.

liz pov.

i woke up with bad headache. suddenly i heard a voice.
"good morning" kells mumbled super tired.
huhh i was alone in my bed where is he?
i turned a bit and saw him laying in the ground with a pillow and blanket.
"wtf are you doing here?" i asked. why was he laying there.
"i was an asshole to you and i didnt wanted to be alone" he mumbled in his pillow.
it was way to early and i had a hangover. the situation was so confusing.
"nah get up and come in bed" i moved aside. i couldnt let him on the ground, it was super cold.
he rolled to bed and claimed in "thank you".
we laid next to each other. both trying to survive the hangover.
i felt back asleep. as i woke up i had his arm around me.
"nah kells put your arm away" i said.
"w-why?" he mumbled.
"i dont want that".
he put his arm away.
later on i was finally half alive. i turned around and faced kells.
he opened his eyes "still hangover-ed you are beautiful".
"yeah i know. fu** i need coffee" i said and rubbed my face with my hands.
i climbed out of bed went into the kitchen where i met andre. i took coffee.
"you good?" he asked.
"i feel like living shit but yeah" i smiled and went back to bed.
i took my laptop. since this festival ends in 3 days i need to look how i come back.
kells still slept next to me. he was laying on his stomach.
he looked like an angel but he was an angel trapped by demons.
"what ya doing?" he looked up with one eye.
"nothing important" i answered.
was i a bitch to him this morning? i still don't know if he had something with a girl yesterday and that hurts.
i put away my laptop and kells sat next to me.
"you good?" he asked.
"yeah but feel like shit and you?".
"yeah same".
i stood up "im getting hungry, i think i go to get breakfast". i took my black jeans, a top and left to the bathroom to get dressed.
as i came back he was still in my bed. he stood up and walked towards me. he hugged me and start kissing my neck.
"nah kells what are you doing?" i stepped a bit back.
"how, what are you doing? i kissed you".
"yes im not stupid, but we had one rule. i have no problem with sharing a bed with a friend but-".
"a friend? wtf are you talking" he spoke up.
"dont be that silly kells. you choose that way yesterday and i am okay with it but i told you i dont want you touching me after that" i smiled and walked out of my room.
i sat down outside next to andre.
"why are you already awake?" i asked him.
"i couldn't sleep n you?".
"yeah me too".
i took a bowl and cereal. the milk was empty.
"inside is new milk" andre told me.
i walked in and met kells in the kitchen.
"liz can we talk?" he looked at me.
"yeah sure, come out" i went to the fridge.
" i mean alone" he looked at me.
"i am really hungry, what do you want?".
"i didnt had something with a girl last night".
"okay" i said, wanting to go back outside.
"lissy did you listend to me?".
"yes i did. but i dont care. lets be honest, what is that what we are doing here? you have your life i have mine. we live far away from each other and we both know we and something like a relationship? no. i had a great time, i still have a great time. dont let make this complected" it fu***** hurt saying this to him.
"but i like you and-".
"i like you too colson but we fight more than anything else the last days. be honest to your self".
i walked out. that was mean but it was the truth. we had a lot beautiful moments together but also bad. however everything ends in 3 days.
"wasnt that not a bit to hard?" andre looked at me.
"what?".
"i heard you both. its your thing but he seriously didnt kissed a girl yesterday".
the problem was i really started to like kells. if we had a future perspective together i would be different. i would work on us. but his life wasnt mine and i dont want to meddle in his things. i was just a girl he met 10 days ago.

*ring* *ring*
i looked at my phone. it was marc. he invited me to a beach party. since only andre and kells were awake, i agreed.
"alright im there in 20" he hang up.
okay i had 2o minutes to get ready.
i told andre that i will be not there today and that i dont know when i will come back. he nod.
i got up and get ready. i dressed in the bikini, put on my short black pants and my suicide silence top.
i hadn't a swim trunks and i didnt wanted to asked the others.
i decided to call marc real quick to ask. he said he would bring me one.

i didnt tell andre where i was going. i only said they can call or me if something is.
marc arrived and we left.