summer experience // machine gun kelly

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the next morning i woke up alone in the bed and i was okay with it. between me and kells nothing happened. also his friends didnt need to know what was between us. what ever it was.
i walked out of my room and met baze. he told me he is going to do sport. "you remember our conversation a day ago? now get dress you go with me".
"baze what? i just woke up" i said. but then i walked back in my room and put on a joggers.
we went jogging together. as we arrived the sea, we made a break.
"and you already spent 6 days her, how do you like it?" he asked.
"it an experience for sure. i am glad you let me stay. its completely different as my small friends band." i answered.
"for sure it is. and how you process the partys and girls? that can be very crazy and i saw the girl yesterday who spilled her drink over you" he said. he really cared about what i thought.
"its weird to see it sometimes but im fine with it. i dont have to deal with them haha. but the girl yesterday, luckily i only wore a bikini" i said.
"i still hope you had fun yesterday" he said.
"yes i really had. i met some artists i really love and we talked a lot. it was very nice" i said.
we jogged back.
as we arrived slim told baze he had book a ship trip yesterday but kells is throwing up in the bathroom. they all talked and ash asked me if i can stay with kells that they still can go to the trip. she would stay but there is a man she wanting to meet again. i agreed. they all left a half an hour later.
i went to the bathroom and saw kells sitting on the ground. i helped him up and he brushed his teethes.
i walked with him in his room and brought him tea.
after the sport with baze i haven't showered. i jumped under the shower, got dressed again. i choose a big hoodie and a joggers since i dont know when i have to left the bungalow next time.
i walked to kells and asked if he was okay, he nod and asked if we could watch a movie together. i agreed. my phone rang, it was ash checking on us. i told her kells is in his bed and doing okay. she thanked me again and told me the man was there and she was very happy. we hang up and i laid next to kells.
in the movie he cuddled on me. i aked him if he was good. he said he was doing much better now and I smiled at him.
he looked at me, swept with one of his hands through my hair and suddenly his soft lips touched mine. i could feel him smile in that kiss.
"god i have waited for this for so long"  he whispered against my lips. i felt butterfly's in my stomach.  he kissed me more and his hand wandered under my hoodie to my waist.
what the hell happens rn. as much as i wanted him kissing me i spoke up "uhm kells i think we shouldn't". he stopped and looked at me "uhm yeah" he flinched back. i placed one hand on his face side "look its just i dont want it weird between us". i dont wanted to be one of his girl but mainly i dont wanted it to be completed between us. "ya okay" he said laying back to watch the movie. "kells I'm sorry." i said. "its fine tho" he answered.
we watched the movie and i hated my self for stopping him. after the move he told we should go get some lunch. i agreed and got dressed into a short pants and a black classic top.
we went to the food area. he got his food and went to a table. he barely spoke to me since the kiss.
on my way to the table i met andy and his friends again. they hugged me and we talked a bit. i went back to kells with a big grin on my face.
we ate and went back to the bungalow. he went in his room, closed the door. i went to my room.