Pain of the past

Just leave me alone

Chris POV

I see Nikki and she sees Minika. I have to talk to her before she gets upset. I walk over and before I have a chance to speak Minika is pulling Nikki into a hug.
"Hey Nikki"
"Hi Minika" she looks to me and she looks so sad.
"You look beautiful"
"Thank you. You too"
"Chris told me about the trial. I'm so glad it all went your way"
"Yeah me too" she looked at me like I had betrayed her.
Scott decides to butt in "I didn't know you were coming Minika?"
"No neither did I. This one decided to stay out all night with his buddies but when he got back home, he mention the party and asked if I wanted to come"
I wasn't really paying attention to what she was saying, my eyes never left Nikki.
Nikki looks to the floor "excuse me a moment"
She walks off in the direction of the bathroom, I know she is upset.
"I'm just going to get a drink"
"Okay baby"
She smiles and kisses my cheek. I walk as fast as I can to find Nikki. She isn't going to want to talk to me but I need to fix this.

Nikki POV

I stand I front of the bathroom mirror, I'm so angry at him, he slept with me and told me he loved me and then went home to her. He also told her all of my personal details. I hear a knock on the door and I know it's chris. I open it and push past him.
"Nik please?" He is begging me. I turn to face him.
"Please what chris? Don't tell Minika about last night"
"That's not what...."
"Screw you. I thought you meant what you said this morning, you told me you loved me, you spend the entire day with me and the kids. You made me feel like I had a family again. You slept with me chris! So what you decided you try out the family life, figured it wasn't for you so went back to your model girlfriend"
"No of course not"
I walk away and find Scott "I'm heading home I'm not feeling well"
"Okay, I'll meet you for coffee tomorrow okay?"
"Yeah okay."
I kissed him and hugged him and headed out the door, grabbed cab and went home. How could I be so stupid.

Chris POV

I walk out of the bathroom and grab scott "where did Nikki go?"
"She went home. I don't know what you did but fix it. That girl has been through enough and to tell Minika about Nikkis past was beyond hurtful chris." He walked away. I knew he wasn't happy with me.
Minika came over "what's wrong baby?"
"Nothing. Just not in the party mood"
"Well let's head home and I can show you a good......."
"No! Just go home Minika"
"Chris?"
"I'm sorry okay but this just isn't working" I walk out of the door and leave her there alone. I make my way to nikkis house, she may not want to see me but I have to talk to her.
I pull up outside and knock on the door. She comes to the door in her sweatpants and my T-shirt. It makes me smile.
"What do you want chris?"
"I just want to talk please"
"Fine" she moves over and let's me walk inside
"Start talking"

Nikki POV

Chris stand there for what feels like forever.
"Talk chris"
"Okay, I broke up with Minika"
"Was this before or after you decided to sleep with and tell me you love me?"
"Nikki please"
"No chris, I let you in. To my life, to my kids lives and I finally heard those words come from your mouth. Words I've waited years for you to say and then I find out it was just all lies."
"I wasn't lying Nikki"
"You don't love me chris, If you did you wouldn't have gone back to her today and you wouldn't have bought her to the party"
"Nikki...."
"You know the saddest part of all this. I've been in love with you since we were 15 years old and I finally felt like I got my dream guy this morning. You were everything I have ever wanted. I never thought you could hurt me so much. But I was wrong. Leave chris please"
"No I'm not leaving. I love you Nikki please"
"No! Get out!"
He looked up at me and I saw the tears in his eyes. He reluctantly walked away and out of my door. I rushed over and locked it, falling down the door as I let my emotions take a hold of me. My heart was broken into a million pieces. The one man, the only one I have ever loved and trusted and he does this to me. How is it possible to go through the abuse I have and still be caused more pain but a man I trusted. I don't know what to do. I feel like I can't breathe. My world is crashing down and I'm not sure how to survive it.