The Long Lost Mafia Princess

Book 2 chapter 51

"The pain-" I say while tears fill my eyes once more, "it's starting to feel g-good a-again" I sob out, voice breaking.

The color on his face drains before he quickly pulls me into his chest. The tears that I'm not able to keep at bay, start flowing out like a river while sob after sob escapes my lips.

One hand holds my head against his chest as it plays with my hair, the other draws circles on my back.

I fist his shirt in my hand while holding him closer to me with my other.

Minutes pass and finally I start to calm down more.

I'm still in Roman's hands when we do some breathing exercises to calm us both down more than just me myself.

I can feel the fear and stress practically radiate off of him. Fear that I would be getting back into old habits which could do some...serious things if I go too far like I did before.

Roman slowly sits himself down too and pulls me into his lap so I'm straddling him while cuddling.

"I'm sorry" I tell him when we stop and just stay in each other's hold for comfort.

"Don't be, I'm just a little scared. It's not good that you're feeling good and happy again when feeling pain if I'm being honest, my love.-" he starts. "-I just don't want you to fall into old habits again and risk losing you, losing someone I love. Val I've never loved anyone or anything more than you, I can't lose you. And I know it sounds selfish and more but I can't help it. Just the thought of losing you, makes my heart break." he says voice breaking while looking at me with tears in his eyes.

I cup his face in my hands while his rest on my waist.

My eyes which are filled with tears close as I lean forward and give him a kiss on the head, than nose before giving a last one on the lips, "Roman, I can't keep any promises but I'll do my best, I'll do everything I can to not fall back into those old habits" I say against his lips.

A sob leaves his throat hearing what I'm saying so I quickly pull him into me.

I play with his hair while also stroking his head and back with my other hand.

He breaks down and starts crying himself which only makes my own tears start falling again.

"I can't lose you Val" he cries, sobbing. He tugs me tighter against him with his head still in my neck.

"I can't lose you either Ro" I tell him honestly.

I keep hugging him while he sobs into my shoulder.

"I love you Roman. I'll never leave you willingly, I promise that on my life" I tell him.

He just tightens his grip around me and snuggles more into me, "I love you more Val, I love you more than I can express." He says as his crying slows down just like his sobs.

"Shhh, breathe baby." I tell him when he chokes on a sob.

I continue helping him calm down before we eventually start to rise from the floor.

Roman doesn't leave me out of sight for even a second as I look in the mirror trying to make sure that no one would notice my crying session.

Even though I am upset with Allesandro, I won't ruin this for him.

Ever since I was pretty young I've never really had extreme red eyes after crying. The white on my eyeball gets red but like the skin around my eye doesn't unless if I rub my eyes when crying.

But since I was clinging onto Roman, I haven't rubbed my eyes so luckily only the white on my eyeball is a little red.

Roman helps me clean off the blood from my hands and makes sure that nothing serious needs to be done before I flatten my hair a little with some water.

I help Roman fix his shirt a little before I bring him into a big hug once more.

When we release it, Roman still holds me close to him by wrapping an arm around my waist, than we exit the powder room.

We walk back to the doors that would lead us to the room where the others are still present.

"Breathe, remember to breathe." Roman says before opening the doors with my assistance.

Heads turn to us, but I ignore them and focus on breathing instead.

We walk back to our chairs and sit down while making ourselves comfortable.

Next to me is Blake also sitting while next to Roman Xavier sits.

Roman holds my hand under the table which is resting on my lap.

Blake looks at me and when he sees the red eyes he frowns.

"What happened? Are you okay?" He quickly rushes out.

I nod, "I'm okay and it's nothing to worry about. Just some anxiety it's okay" I tell him.

He reaches into his pocket and takes out my anxiety pills.

He takes one out which he gives to me, "here and remember you can always come talk to me okay" he reminds me.

"I know, the same goes for you. Did you and Aline make everything up?" I ask him.

"You're my little sister, you can't trick me into changing the subject. But if you want to know, we did, again thank you for the advice. It really helped" he says giving me a small smile.

"Always fratello" I remind him now before swallowing the pill.

(Translation- brother)

Not wanting to be rude and unfriendly or give Adriana the wrong impression, I decide to converse with her too, "so Adriana, how did you and Allesandro meet?" I ask her while gripping Roman's hand tighter.

She looks up at me a little surprised but answers my question.

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I keep conversing with her and my other family members except for Allesandro for the rest of the night. Like I didn't talk to him but he didn't talk to me either so there was no question ignoring or anything.

We eat, laugh and talk all night long until we finally go home where I fall asleep on Roman's chest.