"Why do I have a feeling you're hiding something" Zendaya said whilst staring into my soul.
I was hiding something, now I'm hiding nothing and as terrible as it sounds. I'm miserable without Ariana.
"Yeah well I could say the same to you" I picked at my lunch that I knew I wasn't going to eat.
She turned her head to the side slightly "what's that supposed to mean" I let out a small scoff.
"You've turned into this whole new person Ze and sadly it's not in a good way" if I'm going to be miserable without Ariana, I at least want it to be worth it.
"I have" she pushed her tray away from her slightly so she could lean on the table "I think you should take a long look in the mirror at yourself Y/n because if anyone has changed in a bad way, it's you".
"Hey guys" Madison said joining us. After a moment she noticed the tension that was at the table "what's going on" she asked.
"I'm sure Y/n here can fill you in on everything" Zendaya said as she got up taking her tray with her.
Madison stared at me "did she find out" she asked shocked.
"No" I furrowed my eyebrows "anyways I think that's over now, you know between me and you know who" I looked up to see the direction that Zendaya walked away, to no longer see her.
"What do you mean" she questioned making me sigh.
"What I mean is that, I got threatened by Tokio once again and Ariana saw us kiss" I shrugged my shoulders "it's was two days ago and I haven't heard anything from Ariana".
"Maybe you should talk to her" Madison nudged me "I mean take control for once" I shook my head.
"The guilt Madison" I paused "it's as if it's eating me alive, Zendaya has been acting so differently lately and I only noticed it because I haven't spoken to Ariana" I rubbed my head "I'm a bad friend Madison, I'm a really bad friend".
Madison didn't even disagree with me. All she done was give me a sympathetic look because deep down, both of us knew I was right.
I walked up to the familiar door with a knot of anxiety inside the pit of my stomach. Trying to scratch itself out. Before knocking I thought for a moment, I thought about how safe this door used to feel for me, I thought about how this house was my escape from my own home. It was like a home to me and I went ahead a turned it into a prison.
After I knocked I was met with the face of my best friend.
"Hi" was I could think of to say.
She squinted her eyes at me "hi" after that nothing was said making her take a deep breath in only for her to exhale even longer.
"Do you want to hangout" I asked awkwardly.
She thought for a moment.
"Why not" she shrugged her shoulders.
"I've missed this" Zendaya said when we finished laughing at one of our shared memories "I've missed us Y/n" she reached out and grabbed my hand.
"I did too Ze" I put my other hand to place it over the one she already had on mine "I've been such a bad friend" I shook my head and looked down.
"No you haven't" she tried denying.
"I have, I looked back up at her. I haven't been there for you at all" because I've been with Ariana. "I haven't been there for you after everything that happened with Nate".
I should just tell her. Be true. Maybe she could one day forgive me.
"I just hope you can forgive me" I really want to tell her.
"Y/n you are my best friend. I could never hate you so therefore you have nothing to be forgiven about" she laughed.
I wonder what way her face would look like if I told her. Would her smile drop and turn into a straight and cold line. I can just imagine the small light from her eyes turn off.
"How have you been though" I asked. She sat back in her seat and rubbed the side of her neck.
"Honestly, I've been better" she chuckled. Would me telling her about Ariana and I make her relapse. "It was just so sudden, like one day we're cuddling and the next he's breaking up with me over text".
That can never happen again. Zendaya can never find out.
"Over text" I shook my head "he didn't even have the courage to say it to your face".
"Nope" she laughed and the waved her hand "I'm over it now, things at home have mainly been weird".
That caught my interest.
"How so" I asked.
"It's my mom, she finally brought over the person she's been hiding all this time" I could feel the blood drain from my face.
"What" I barely said.
"Yeah and she's sort of weird" Zendaya scrunched uo her face.
"You're mom is seeing someone" Zendaya laughed.
"Yes dummie, I told you this like months ago. My gut feeling is always right but. I'm not her biggest fan" she shrugged "whatever makes her happy though".
I almost had to shake my head out of my thoughts.
This is a good thing. Ariana has found someone for herself, I'm still doing business with Tokio and Zendaya and I are back to the way we were.
"Well how about this" I leaned over towards my best friend "fuck Nate Jacobs" the laugh that came from Zendaya was almost calming to hear. How I've missed being around her all the time.
"Fuck Nate Jacobs" she said back with a smile.
It's been a while, hope you enjoyed and sorry for any mistakes!
