"Nate has just been the best, guess what we're planning to do for Christmas" I just sounded Zendaya out while she talked about her relationship as we sat in her living area. At least now that Ariana and I are 'seeing each other in that way' I can come over to her house again. "Isn't that just amazing" she was so in love and I loved to see that.
"I'm so happy for you Ze" I smiled at her, I never want to be the reason that she's unhappy.
"So" she had a goofy smile on her face "what about you and Camila" she poked me making me laugh.
"Yeah we're doing good" even though I've been spending majority of my time with your mom. Who might be in love with me.
I just can't get that idea away from my mind.
"Just good" she eyed me "what are you hiding Y/l/n" just as she said that we heard her front door open and in walked her mother.
That's what I'm hiding.
"Hey girls" she said with the shopping bags in her hands.
"Mother answer this question for me please" oh no Zendaya please don't.
"If someone you know that you truly trust asks you a question after them telling a lot about something quite similar to that question would you answer" Ariana looked at Zendaya weirdly before saying.
"Yeah I suppose I would" that made both of them look at me.
"So tell me about Camila" Zendaya threw her pillow at me but, I was awkward because it wasn't like I didn't sleep with her mom last night.
"There's nothing to say" I could tell by how Ariana's eyes lit up that she was happy to hear that response.
"There's your answer" Ariana said to her daughter defending me until Zendaya stood up.
"There is cause I've seen how you've been acting lately" I have to stop her.
"Okay Doctor Phil sit down" I laughed but it didn't get her to budge.
"Let me think" I'm getting very nervous now "constantly texting in class, always running out of school and need I say the smile that has been on your face" her face lit up just like her mother's eyes did a few seconds ago.
"Y/n" she gasped "are you in love" my heart just fell into my ass.
"Okay Cupid" I was quick to respond "no I am not and you need to stop saying that everyone is in love" I pulled her back down.
"Who else is she saying that's in love" Ariana asked and Zendaya couldn't hold back in her laugh.
"Well mom actually" she giggled "I wouldn't want you thinking that I don't know anything" Ariana blushed from embarrassment.
"What do you mean" she furrowed her eyebrows.
"I know you have a special someone" I pretended to be on my phone to avoid this conversation.
"Y/n is right Zendaya, you need to stop jumping to conclusions" she said sternly wiping Zendaya's smile clean off of her face.
"So how was you day" Ariana rubbed my shoulders as we're both in the pool in the backyard seeing as Zendaya decided to stay over at Nates house.
"A bit stressful" I sank into the feeling of her hands rubbing my back now "you" I asked.
"So much better now" she whispered in my ear and then filled up both glasses of wine "can I ask you something" she was now facing me.
"Go on" I said sipping my wine.
"Are you in love with Camila" I had to hold myself back from spitting the wine out.
"Why are you asking me that" she shook her glass.
"Answering a question with a question isn't answering my question Y/n" she smirked at me.
"Well" I paused "it's still early days" she moved closer to me.
"So you're telling me that you're falling for her" her wet hand was rubbing my forearm "even though you've been with other people".
I thought for a second "I'm not sure" I furrowed my eyebrows and looked down a bit. That was until I felt Ariana's soft hand pick my head up a little.
"Let me make you an offer that you won't be able to refuse" I waited for her to continue "if you leave Camila, I'll pay for everything to do with your college".
"What" I said shocked and moved slightly away from her making her move again to me.
"You don't have to answer right now" she kissed me "but please do it soon" she kissed me again "because having you to myself sounds so" she kissed me again and thought "delightful".
"But" she scrunched her face when I said that "what about Zendaya" she gave a chuckle.
"What about Zendaya" she said confused.
"You heard her, she thinks I'm in love with Camila and the for me to just up and leave her like that" I took a breath calming myself down "she'll get suspicious".
"Who do you love" she held my face. I knew we both felt it but, we're both scared to admit it.
"I" I looked into her eyes to see a slight bit of hope. I sighed "I don't know what I feel" I got up out of the pool.
"Where are you going" she asked still sitting in the water.
"I just need to go" was the last thing I said to her before leaving.
Could I love Ariana. This is all just one big mess. Being with Camila is the safe and better option. I'm supposed to want her, for my sake, for the sake of mine and Zendaya's friendship.
But why do I want Ariana.
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