Me

Grade 5 and 6

I don't remember when I started being friends with this girl, but the drama started around grade 5. Her name was Hannah. She was really nice to me, but...she wasn't to a lot of people. Mostly my friend Jocelyn, and then her bff Claudia. Like it would be little things but she'd overreact for everything and get really mad. Jocelyn actually handled it super well- she was always calm and nice and never yelled. Hannah however would yell at her and be all like 'you are so mean! Stop yelling at me!' Etc and Jocelyn would just go calmly and nicely but in a firm tone, 'Hannah I'm not yelling you're the one yelling'. A lot of the time she would start crying though and then Hannah would start crying cuz she thought that she was right and everyone was teaming up against her (Jocelyn's friend Claudia and another friend stood up for her and were there usually).
These situations happened a lot and I never knew what to do. Because while I know Hannah was hurting Jocelyn and she was overreacting...I could still see her point. Because I was like her too...with my sis (she is three years younger than me). Around my family I was really moody and grumpy and I'd get upset with my sister over everything because I thought it wasn't fair or something but then later on I'd realize I was overreacting maybe a bit too much...
That's kinda what Hannah did.
But I couldn't stand up for either one of them. First off I didn't have the guts. Also...with Jocelym..she had her other friends backing her up and when I wanted to say stuff then they said things first. And I was afraid if I stood up for her Hannah would get mad at me and I would lose the one friend I was able to be myself around and talk to (usually in social situations my mind goes blank and I can't think of anything to say). And when Hannah is mad it's really scary.
But usually afterward id go to Jocelyn and comfort her and then after I might talk to Hannah too but she usually was saying mean stuff about Jocelyn which made me uncomfortable. But both of them (especially Jocelyn) were always asking me why I was friends with the other...but Jocelyn knew Hannah was (surprisingly, in her opinion) nice to me.
But this was really stressful and it really stressed me out and it was hard...
In grade 6 I wasn't in the same class as Jocelyn and Claudia..I only had Hannah. And my other classmates who were grade 6s (it was a 6/7 split) were like a 'group' so I hung out with them a lot but they were like 'cool' and I wasn't...I never said anything I was just there...half the time they didn't notice me.
I think it was grade 6 I started crying myself to sleep...