Me

Friends.......?

So today was not really a great day. I went to my old school to do this fundraiser thing cuz they were having this one mile run and so me and my sister (who still goes there) did it. I expected to see my old friends (they were sporty and have siblings there too) but I didn't..but then I saw them helping out. Anyway after I was just hanging out and I saw them and I think they saw me but they didn't come over and say hi...I was debating it but I was scared😟
But then after I saw Jade who is the nicest so I said hi and she gave me a hug but then she went right over to Caylie and two other of my..old friends. And they started talking. And I said a few things trying to talk to them and they just like ignored me or went like '..yea....' And went back to talking to eachother. And I realized how much we had lost our friendship and grown apart. And it hurt😢. After like a minute they left and then I had to fight really hard not to cry.
Then I went shopping for swimsuits (I was really thankful I hadn't cut the day before which I had wanted to do real bad) and I was trying on a bikini and I couldn't get the clasp at the back to work and I tried for like 5 min and I couldn't do it and I started crying..cuz I can't do a simple thing like that...
And then my dad got mad and yelled and me and said to stop being irritable and grumpy and getting mad all the time
And I was talking to Olive (over text) and I haven't talked to her really that much this year and it kinda hit me again how I miss her...
*sigh*
I ordered my grad dress today tho!!!XD