Me

My week

Sorry I haven't updated in a while. Not that anybody would miss me.
I've had a pretty crappy week. In general I've just been feeling down.
On Saturday I was playing piano downstairs (it's actually my sisters but sometimes I play; she's always telling me to practiceXD) anyway my sis was mad at me cuz I wouldn't play Mastermind with her so she came downstairs and was all like, U can't play piano; it's my piano! Get off my piano! and she closed the piano on my fingers😒. She was like get out I'm gonna watch a movie rn. So I was like fine and left to my room (it's not my room yet I still share a room with my sis (who is 10 btw) upstairs but everyone calls it my room and I hope to move in. It has my music stuff in it but I usually play upstairs- wait. OMG. I don't think I've mentioned this yet!
I play the violin!!!!XD
ok anyway sometimes I play in 'my' room downstairs by it echoes a lot so it's usually b4 I have a concert or something so I know how it will sound or so I can actually pretend I'm ok (if it echoes it covers your mistakes more) so I went into that room to play my piece and my sister started yelling at me that I was too loud and she was like go upstairs I wanna watch my movie! and I was like fine once I finish my song. But she kept screaming at me and crying and everything so finally I finished and she stormed in and it was so scary it was almost funny; when I am scared I tend to laugh because I'm like nervous. Thankfully I didn't tho so hat would've pissed her off SOOO much. Her face was completely red and her cheeks were streaked with tears and she had this SUPER angry face like it was terrifying and she looked like she was gonna come at me. Which she did.
She ran over and slapped my arm over and over as hard as she could (which she has never done before ever we occasionally lightly kick eachother but it's like playful nothing serious) and so I was like '____ (I'm not giving away her name) ok I'm going upstairs!' And then she went into the doorway and I was like excuse me do U want me to get out or not. Lol but she moved.
My arm was all tingly and numb and it was red. And then the next day it was sore when I rubbed on it...wow Jesus. It really hurt (emotionally) that she would do that to me but when she ran at me I was so scared that she would hurt my violin which I was holding so after I just kept thinking 'be glad she didn't go for it' and that helped a LOT and I was grateful for that. It helped me be less upset about it.
Then Sunday was this special occasion thing that we celebrate I'm not gonna explain but I was inviting my friends over and we were gonna go for ice cream and I like one store and my friends like another but I thought since it was my name day (that's what it's called) it should be my choice but my family was yelling at me and saying that selfish so it made me feel horrible and my sis suggested going to both and I thought it was a good idea but my mom kept rubbing it in how rude and self centred I am;(.
Then Monday there was no school and I was on my ripstick and it got stuck in the sand at the end of the driveway so it stopped and I kinda kept going...so I fell and scraped my arm pretty badly I scraped my shoulder, elbow, upper arm, and my hands and leg got cut a bit...lol oops. It's hard to straighten it still. Later that day I went to do archery at the outdoor range which I haven't done before so that was fun but then my whole family kept taking my bow to shoot and it's like excuse U that's my bow and arrows. And my dad himself had told my sis she couldn't shoot because she is super weak and can't pull back the string but then he said she could and I was like what the heck and after like she had gone 4 times (3 shots per time so like 12 shots) I was like ok that's enough and she was like no after dad goes (cuz he wanted to go too, same with my mom-__-) she wants to go again and when I said no my dad got really mad and I was upset cuz he was kinda being a hypocrite.
Oh and Monday I had my violin lesson. I have a competition in June so I was preparing for that and she kept pointing out so many mistakes and it made me feel terrible. And then I was playing the end of my piece, which I know I'm not that good at, and like literally every 3 seconds she would stop me and tell me something to fix or to do it again and do better and stuff. And it was really embarrassing and made me feel even worse cuz this older girl who is 17 who also plays violin was there and was watching me fail. She is super good at violin she got accepted into this university and only 5 students get accepted so that's huge like she is amazing and I wanna be like her and I doubt I ever will be...I'm so awful;(
Then Tuesday after school my dad was like ok at 5:00 go outside to garden and I went in my room meanwhile but I didn't know what time it was cuz I didn't have a clock. Then my sis came in and was like in 2 min we gotta be outside so I waited about 2 min but then my dad came in and was like ____ U were supposed to be outside..and I wasn't so I wasn't allows on my iPod the rest of the day-__-
Then later he told me to check myself for tics and I said I would when I take a shower and he was like no do it now and I was like no later and he was like no you'll forget and I was like no I won't and this went on in circles for at least 5 min but the thing is I hate undressing like I never take off my clothes except to shower I feel uncomfortable even in like shorts (that are short... In my opinion but a lot of people wear like short shorts but I wouldn't feel comfortable in those they have to go like halfway down my thigh) and something that shows my stomach. I just hate seeing myself I avoid it at all costs so I really didn't want to. But he didn't know that;( Otherwise I would've gone probly. *sigh*
Wednesday (yesterday) I was going to get a case for my bow (buy it from some person) while my sis was at dance and then after my mom was all like 'it doesn't fit in the car!' And she was like flustered about it for like 10min and I was like mom well put in inside the car but she wouldn't listen and went to talk to the people and called my dad...
And I got upset cuz I wanted to go watch my sister dance cuz I've never gone to her dance before. And then my mom got really mad at me when I asked her if we could go
But it was late and I was grumpy and in a bad mood
Then again I'm always grumpy...I can see why everyone hates me