Since I stopped being friends with Livvie I've been HORRIBLE ugh I'm so sad and lonely. But like I'm so sad that I can't feel it like it's just this heaviness in my chest/heart and it sucks I feel numb and I wanna feel the pain... I can't cry and I wanna cry so much but I just can't and it's awful.
It's not just Livvie I think idk I'm not sure just everything..
I really really need a mature older figure in my life. Someone to hug me and tell me it'll be ok and who will let
me break and I don't have to act like the older person. Livvie was kinda like that person just not irl but now I don't have her and I miss that so much.
I used to have a lot of friends on Pinterest and talk to so many people and now I don't talk to anybody now I just have Kylie and a new friend Jordyn.. I feel so alone all the time. And I feel bad for venting to Jordyn cuz she's younger than me and it's not fair I her I should be the stronger one...
But I'm not strong😟
I'm so worried about Kylie and I'm so scared I'm gonna lose her too😢
She doesn't see how much she means to me.
I don't think I mean that much to her..I mean I try so hard to always help and support her but I am never enough and that kinda hurts I just wish I could be enough and mean as much to her as she does to me.. She's my bff and I don't wanna lose her it hurts me so much when she hurts...
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RandomBasically this is about my life. I'm making it anonymous so people I know in real life don't know it's me. You can call me Maddison for now.
