another pretty december | b.e

thirty six

"billie sit still"

"im trying" billie whines and I tug on her hair a little harder, knowing this is my third attempt to braid her hair.

she will not sit still. 

I blame all the sugar she's devoured this morning. 

I told her it was a bad idea but she wasn't listening, too busy shoving more sweets into her mouth.

sorry, candy.

after I came back from the hair salon billie insisted she wanted to match me and get her own braids so I offered to do them, deciding to do a simple two french braid style.

it's been three weeks since we've made it official and since, life has been amazing.

ive spent as much time as I can with billie and she's even built up the confidence to touch me.

we've been taking things slow, apart from the fact that we're fucking almost every night.

apart from when billie came on her period because she felt so sick and just wanted to cuddle.

we've even told each other we love each other.

how it happened was an accident but im sure billie doesn't regret letting it slip.

 it was the best moment of my life.

flashback

"im in a bookshop right now but I promise ill go get you some food, okay?" I talk in a hushed tone down the phone, not knowing who could be listening right now.

"come back" billie whines and I smile "im horny"

"well im buying books so be patient"

"ember please"

"do you want some food or not?"

"no I wanna eat you"

"goodbye billie"

"no wait!"

"yes?" I pick up another book, reading the blurb, thankful this bookshop has an English section so I can buy some books.

"can you pick up some fries?"

"okay baby, anything else?"

"no just bring your sexy ass back here"

"okay me and my sexy ass will be back soon"

billie laughs and says "bye I love you" before ending the call and I almost drop my phone on the floor.

did she really just say that?

harry turns and asks me if im okay and I nod my head, wanting to get out of the bookstore and back to billie.

I don't really remember the drive, too busy overthinking everything.

I pay for our books and pick up some chips, getting back to the venue.

when we get inside the green room everyone else is talking, billie not in the room so I walk over to claudia who wants to see the books I'd bought and I was happy for the distraction.

im glad claudia is starting to love reading as much as I do because although im gay and do prefer sapphic books, I also read straight books so I can swap with claudia and we can talk about what we thought about them.

once im ready to perform tonight and still haven't found billie so I go looking for her and  find her in the toilets brushing her teeth.

I don't say anything but I walk up behind her, looking at her in the mirror. she pauses brushing a moment when my hand slides up the back of her oversized shirt but goes right back to brushing, still looking at me.