Song-shots (Welcome to the statehouse)

🌪First is the worst second is the best?🌀

TW: Attempted suicide, gay ship lightly implied, sad?

Under the water we can't breathe, we can't breathe

Running home, running away from the same man he fell in love with, the same man he trusted, that same man who beat him senseless.

Under the water, we die

It felt as though he was suffocating, he couldn't breathe regularly, he was just a teenager, after all, young and naive. Really naive...

Under the water, there is no one watching

What would the church think of him? It's a sin to be gay! He went against his religion! And for what? To be beaten by his family? The man he liked? everyone? It didn't make sense.

Under the water we are alone

'Home?' as if that was a place he could go to, he changed directions instead he went to the cliffs, he always felt calmer on a cliff.

Then why do we jump in?
Why do we jump in?

The water below the cliff was beautiful plus it was about a 50-52 foot drop, and he knew he couldn't be fixed... So taking out his phone he texted the one person he could've talked to, sent them a quick text and sat his Bible down next to the phone.

Under the water, we die

Walking to the edge of the cliff he jumped, he knew it may kill him, he was sure of it. As his body fell he smiled and then he collided with the water and the rocky seafloor. Everything went dark

So many souls, that lost control
Where did they fall?

When he awoke he looked around to find him being carried somewhere by a boy who looked around his age, he was muttering under his breath incoherently.

Into the deep, what do they seek?
Where did they fall?

he didn't recognise him and then the boy noticed he was awake, "Welcome back." he said in a sickeningly sweet voice, "Now what on Gods green earth made you do that?" he spoke while setting him down on a riverbank.

Where did they fall?

It usually would've been as normal as it could be in the statehouse, Utah being the first to wake up and start making breakfast soon to be followed by California who usually helped.

Hearts will dream again

but the day had already started weird, Utah had woken up at 2:40 am when usually it's 3:40 am. Colorado was already awake and not high oddly, and Utah was exhausted.

Lungs will breathe in

Later in the day, however, while he was walking to the bookstore he ran into an 'old foe'. Before he could walk away or leave entirely he was grabbed by the arm and pulled into an alleyway

Wash away the sins

Several hours later he was once again walking to a cliff he was disgusted with himself, his body, his pain, his everything.

It's where it begins

He knew he had some problems, his anxiety and depression had skyrocketed a while ago because of a loss in a whole bunch of shit.

Feet won't fail you now
Arms won't let you down

so he had been already feeling like shit and the encounter didn't help at all and now here he was, standing on the edge of a cliff the water below, ready to plunge to his demise.

Wash away the sins
Under the water, we can't be together

he had nothing, after all, no family, nobody really cared for him, so what was there to lose? He was gay that was a sin, engaged in sexual intercourse before marriage once again sin and so much more.

Under the water, we die

taking a deep breath texting the group chat one final goodbye consisting of 'hope you find my replacement soon.' and sat down on his phone.

Then why do we jump in?
Why do we jump in?

taking off his tie and setting it by his phone he also lost his bible during the encounter, and he just looked at the water and...

Under the water, we die
So many souls that lost control
Where did they fall?

"First is the worst, Second is the best."

Into the deep, what do they seek?

He dove deep into the water once again only seeing blackness and after a few seconds before he completely blacked out he heard a splash in the water near him.

Where did they fall?

It felt like hours he was out for but it was most likely just minutes, when he came to the situation was all too familiar to him.

Where did they fall?

He was being carried out of the water once again he didn't know who, everything was blurry. All he could make out was the musty smell from the cliffs and his soaking wet clothing. "For fucks sake again Utah?"

Hearts will dream again
Lungs will breathe in
Wash away the sins

He started to panic, he didn't know who was holding him, and he couldn't see or make out anything, he started to push against and kick but his body was so exhausted from everything going on and his lungs had water in them so his flailing didn't do much

It's where it begins

"Woah there bud, friend not foe, calm down buddy." the person said secured his hands to make sure he wouldnt fall. And he carried him to what looked like a house, then it clicked that the house was almost identical to the statehouse.

Feet won't fail you now
Arms won't let you down
Wash away the sins

As soon as he walked in with Utah someone came up to him and started checking him over his vision finally clearing up a bit he recognised Massachusetts to be the 'medic' in this situation and Colorado who was still holding him.

It's where it begins

After Mass gave the okay that he was fine he heard Colorado muttered something and it made him freeze "thank God, I love you too much to lose you." then he cleared his throat and let him down still holding onto the shorter males shoulders to make sure he wouldn't fall

Hearts will dream again
Wash away the sins

Maybe just maybe, he had a reason to stay and maybe open up. "Just maybe..."

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Sorry this one wasn't as good and I am going to post fluff soon but I don't know when that will be. Please, please give requests because I suck at coming up with my ideas. Remember you are loved and make sure to drink some water today! If you need help please get it.