Song-shots (Welcome to the statehouse)

Don't leave me, please...

TW: SH, su!c!de, blood, swearing, self-blaming, bxb, self-degrading, anxiety, depression, (LMK if I missed smth)

he's only 17, her whole life's ahead of him
he hates school because the people there discredit him

Maryland hated looking in the mirror, people always made fun of how he looked, so he covered them.

His boyfriend tries to show him that's not how it seems
But every day he just gets lowered with his self-esteem

He's told his boyfriend, Virginia, about how he felt, and Virginia immediately tried to figure out how to help

He let's him know that every night will have a brighter day
He even tried to overdose and take his life away

Virginia couldn't fathom the thought of almost losing Maryland again,

he's feeling hopeless there just sitting down beside his bed

when he got that call he ran, he was barefoot but he ran all the way to his house, he knew what a simple choked voice saying "I'm sorry" meant.

Then he takes his hand and places it beside his head
He tries to hold him but with every touch he still resists

He had gotten there just in time and was able to save him, the hospital discharged him after a few mental evaluations

And then he sees the scars that bury deep within his wrists
he's feeling numb, he tries to beg and plead and ask him, "Why?"

Maryland tried to back up he didn't want to hurt Virginia by telling him that he was hurting in a way that couldn't be fixed.

he says this way he has control of the pain he feels inside
He's asking him, "How long it's going since you've felt this?
Way because you got me here, just feeling so damn helpless"

Maryland knew Virginia would feel completely useless if he couldn't fix his problems.

he says, "It's been a while. I guess I needed better luck"
And then he screams at him and tells him, "Baby, never cut!"

Maryland would try to shrug it off and Virginia wouldn't have any of that, he would scream at the entire world if he had to.

Nobody seems to get you, you feel you're on your own
But listen, pretty boy, you don't have to be alone

Everyone knew Virginia cared for Maryland more than himself, well everyone knew that except for Maryland.

So, baby, don't cut, baby, don't cut
You can do anything, just promise baby you won't cut

Virginia had Maryland's right arm in his hands ghosting his fingers over the new and old scars, a tear fell from Virginia's eye as he hugged his boyfriend tight.

"I know your heart is hurting, you think the road has end
You may just feel that blade you're holding is your only friend"

Virginia spoke softly as Maryland was frozen in his place, his biggest secret was out to his boyfriend and he wasn't mad?!

But baby don't cut, baby don't cut
You can do anything, just promise baby you won't cut

Maryland started crying into Virginia's shoulder, the taller rubbed circles into his back and whispered comforting words, letting his boyfriend cry.

The next day at school he's feeling better than the day before
Even cracked a couple smiles as he walked the corridor

Maryland had genuinely felt better, happier he would dare to say, but he tripped and messed it up.