Trying to be happy.

Chapter 26:

I wake up in the middle of the night.I am sweating,i feel nauseous,my feet hurt,and I have this weird lightning bolt feeling in my stomach.I try to push Drew off of me without waking him,but he pops up quickly.
"Are you okay?"He asks and I shake my head.I can barely breath.I push Drew off of me and run into the bathroom and start to throw up.It's not flu season so what is wrong with me.Drew comes and grabs my hair for me,still trying to keep his distance.I start to count the days since I lost my virginity.Almost two weeks.Maybe it is one of my bad periods.Maybe I'm pregnant!Did Drew use protection?I was so caught up in the moment I didn't think of it.I hope I'm not pregnant,that would ruin so much.I stand up and go back to lay on the bed.I put my hands on my stomach and try to go back to sleep.I hear the toilet flush and Drew comes back to lay in the bed.He wraps his arm around me,stops at my hands and shapes his hands like mine.I look down and out hands are making a heart around my stomach.Oh my goodness,i'm gonna throw up again.Sleep takes over me before sickness can.I wake up to an empty bed.Drew has work today so I don't freak out.Trina has texted me saying she is going on a trip for a few days.I look around the room and it is not a mess,but it is not clean to my standards.I decide to clean the house because I can't take it.By the time I am finished cleaning,I decide I need a shower to get this bleach off me.The shower makes me feel great.When I step out of the shower,I look in the mirror.I look different.My cheeks are the most subtle shade of red,my blue-gray eyes are wild and lit up like a child's on Christmas.I put on gray leggings,a high low pink tank top and black socks.I read After 3 and I cry as Tessa leaves for Seattle.This is too much I throw my phone on the bed and go into the kitchen.I am so hungry,but there is nothing to eat.I should go shopping,yeah I'm gonna go shopping.I go into our room and grab the two hundred dollars I found in the glove compartment of my car the day I got it.I get my pink vans out of the closet.I go to the bathroom to take the bobby pins out of my hair,it still looks really good.I grab my phone and keys,then leave out of the house.When I show up at Walmart it is packed.I'm too damn antisocial for this.
I walk into the store and go to get all the food we will need.I start to feel nauseous and I throw up in the near by trash can.Oh hell no I'm getting a pregnancy test.I walk over to the section where all the medicine is and get a Clear Blue pregnancy test.I pay for the stuff and I have one hundred dollars left.As I drive back to the house,"Conquerer" from the Empire album comes on.This is stressing me out,I turn off the song and drive the rest of the way in silence.When I arrive at the house,I quickly put away all the groceries and go to the bathroom.I read the directions,they are pretty simple,pee,wait cry or rejoice.I pee on the top of the test,I wait about six minutes before it beeps.I take a deep breath before looking at the test and falling to the floor.
"No."I whisper,looking at the positive test.That has to be wrong.I take the other one,same results.I start to cry,how could I not make sure he put on protection.Then again,why didn't he put any on.How am I gonna tell him.I walk out of the bathroom and stuff both of the test and the box in my purse.It is almost time for Drew to get off.He will be home in fifteen minutes.I really don't wanna cook,but I am still hungry.I order a pizza and call it a day.I go to Drew's drawer and get one of his white shirts and put on my red shorts with it.I put my hair in a ponytail and walk out of the room.I go down to the basement and turn on the television.I walk over to the table and see some bills that need to be paid and stack them on top of each other I sit down on the couch and watch two episodes of Friday Night Lights,until I hear the doorbell,I turn off the t.v and light and head up stairs.I pay and thank the pizza man before putting the pizza in the oven so it stays warm.Ten minutes later the door clicks and Drew walks in with a scowl set on his face.When he sees me he give me a small smile and walks into the room.I follow him quietly.
"Are you okay?"I ask him.
"Yea I'm just a little tired."He tells me as he lays back on our bed.I join him on the bed and put my small arms around his waist.I run my fingers through his hair and kiss him on his lips.He kisses me again,instead of pulling away he pulls me on top of him and starts to tug at my shorts.I put my hand on his and confusion flashes in his eyes.
"What's wrong?"He asks and I shake my head.
"I can't,we can't."I say.
"Please Jazzy I need a distraction,just please."He begs and I almost give in,but I know it's wrong.
"Drew,I just."I don't have a good excuse.
"It's ok,your not ready."That's fine.I'm not ready,that'll do.
"Yeah."I say,before climbing off of him.
"I ordered pizza."I say quietly,I think he is mad.
"Hey."He say turning me around.
"I am not upset,our relationship is not based on sex.It's based on our love.It's fine if you are not ready,I want you to enjoy yourself too."He tells me and I nod slowly.I serve him our pizza and he thanks me.
"So how was your day?"He asks before taking a bite of his pizza.Oh you know,I'm pregnant with your child at eighteen.
"Good,I went food shopping."I tell him.He has had such a long day,I will tell him tomorrow.We decide to go to sleep early again.
When I wake up,Drew is not in bed,today is his short day.I need a creative way to tell him.I find myself calling Kayla.She answers on the second ring.She is very happy and tells me she will be here soon.When she shows up,she looks gorgeous her long hair is similar to mine only straight and she has on an electric blue,strapless dress.She is way too young to be with my dad.
"If I tell you this,you can not tell my dad."I tell her and she nods.
"I'm pregnant."I tell her and her eyes light up.
"That's great,I know your young,but thing about it your bring life into the world."She tells me and I touch my stomach and I smile.I never thought of it that way.
"I need a creative way to tell him."I tell her and she beams.
"I know the perfect way!"She squeals.
"Where are the pregnancy test?"She questions and I go get them out of my purse.
"We need to go to the mall to get a shirt made she tells me.I hurry and change before we leave.When we arrive at the mall Kayla practically drags me to "T-SHIRT WORLD".The sales woman is very friendly and helps us a lot.I find a shirt with tiny hand and footprints on it that says "New mommy coming through".Kayla loves it she is so amazing and kind,she sort of reminds me of my own mother.She is still not my mom.I put on the gray shirt over my white tank top.It looks a lot better with my red shorts.When stop by the dollar store to get a poster board and some markers.When we arrive at my house,I write "I'M PREGNANT!" and put it on the bed along with my pregnancy tests.I thank Kayla and she wishes me good luck.Soon after her leaving,Drew comes in the door with a bright smile on his face.He kisses me and goes into the room,I quickly follow behind.I stay a few feet behind him.His eyes light up as he walks up to the bed and picks up the test.
"This is."He says,I hope he isn't upset.
"I know we are young,but."I begin to say.He looks at my shirt and smiles.
"This is great!"He exclaims and a huge weight is lifted from my chest.
"We are so young,i'm not even in college yet."I ramble.
"I make great money and you can still go to school.The baby will not be born until after we are in school.Oh baby this is great!"He scoops me into his arms.
"I'm glad you are happy."I tell him.It has been two months since I found out I was pregnant.Drew and I are engaged we are getting married after the baby.Almost everyone knows,including my dad who practically disowned me.Drew and Trina are probably more excited that me.Today is the day that the doctor guesses my baby's gender.I put on one of the tank tops I got from that maternity store and a pair of jeans.I walk out of the room to see Drew eating cereal.He smiles when he see me and I smile back.
"Good morning my love."He says kissing my cheek.We leave for the doctor's appointment,the moment I step outside I start to sweat.It is the middle of July so it is hot as ever,and it makes it worse that we are in Texas.When we arrive at the doctor's office there is no wait and we are let into Doctor Green's room immediately.
"Hello Mr. and Mrs. Williams."The hospital thinks that we are married,that's the only way they will let him in the room when I have a baby.
"Good morning."We say in unison.
"Okay,let's make some predictions today."She says,and I lay back on the table and lift up my shirt.She closely looks at my ultrasound.I look at Drew and he smiles.
"You see this."She says and I look closely and shake me head.
"That is the baby's penis,I believe.So as of now you are having a boy."She tells me and I squeal.Drew and I both wanted a boy.We thank the doctor and walk out of the hospital.Drew drops me home before heading to work.I get a call on my phone while I am adding my ultrasound from today to the baby book.I look at the screen and it its Eric.
"Hey Eric."I answer.
"Hey Jas,I'm on my way."He tells me and hangs up.I roll my eyes.When he shows up he hugs me.
"How's the baby?"He asks.
"Umm...he's fine."I say rubbing my stomach.
"You guys are so young,you must be terrified."He says.I haven't seen him since our fight,why is he here.
"Not really."I say.
"Drew is pretty stupid for not using a condom."He says and that makes me angry.
"You have no right to talk about him or even be talking to me for that matter!"I yell and his face twists in anger.
"Well you are both acting like it's all peachy and good!Your pregnant!"He yells back.
"That is none of your business!I'm not like you I want better for myself,for my child!"I counter.
"What do you want!Your gonna have a kid,school,a god damned marriage,and still trying to be a normal eighteen year old!How is that better for yourself!Choose Jasmine what do you want!"He yells and I start to cry.
"I don't know!"I yell.
"Well you obviously do!"He points to my stomach.
"I don't want to be miserable all my life!"I yell.
"That doesn't make sense!"He is screaming now.
"I don't know!I'm just trying to be happy!"I cry and his eyes soften.
"I don't wanna spend my whole life dwelling on a mistake.Now that mistake is a blessing,I'm bringing life into the world."I finish.He walks out of the door and I dry my tears.Stress is not good for the baby.Drew comes home and I order Chinese we spend the night reading.This is my life now,no wild partying and being out every night. I have to grow up and be a mom and a wife and I wouldn't have it any other way.
(Hi guys!!So this is the longest chapter I have ever written,it is also my favorite.So yes Jasmine is pregnant,and I'm not sure if this book will end soon,I wanna have at least fifty chapters so probably not.I loved the book title reference,when I re-read it I got so happy.So anyway,i'll be updating soon.Please vote and comment,at least vote I worked hella hard on this chapter.Anyway love you guys🍼👶🏻💙)