Trying to be happy.

Chapter 4:

I wake up early Monday to my alarm ringing.I hurry and get up and grab my toiletry bag. I set my timer so that I only shower for ten minutes. After i get out of the shower,I wrap a towel around my body an plug in my blow dryer and dry my hair and curl my ends.I decide on one of my white maxi skirt and a blue plaid button up shirt and my blue Bobs.I look into the mirror and smile at my good look.I then grab my bag and my phone and run down the stairs to see my dad.I do not speak as I walk out of the door.I decide that I am hungry and walk to the Café near my house and get a cup of coffee before going to the bus stop and walk to the bus stop and see Eric's truck.I walk over to him and get in.
"Hey where you headed?"he says after kissing me hello.
"Class." I say smiling.I like to see Eric he always makes my day better.Just when I am about to say something else my phone rings and Eric and I look at it.
"Who's Drew?" He asks,his voice laced with suspicion.
"Just a friend." I simply answer.
He breathes and pulls my wrist in one hand,"I'm gonna ask you again Who is Drew?"
"I have already told you a friend!"I yell and push him off me.
"Don't touch me!"He yells even louder,pushing me.I try to hold back tears.It didn't hurt but I don't like that he put his hands on me.He realizes what he did and tries to apologize but I stop him.
"How dare you put your hands on me?!I pushed you because you were hurting me!No man has ever put his hands on me! You did just because you thought I was cheating! I never even kissed another boy!I don't even want to look at you right now!"I tell while the tears stream down my face.
"Then don't get the fuck out of my car!"He yells even louder.I open the door and step out of his car,fuming while he speeds off.I have a minute to cool down and I start to cry,i get a few weird looks from people passing by.It has been thirty minutes and I've thrown my coffee,screamed,and thrown my backpack.I decided I should walk home.When I arrive home I'm glad that my dad isn't home.I start to think about my eventful morning and wish I wouldn't have pushed Eric.I look in the mirror and I look awful my mascara is running,my hair is disheveled,and my face is tear stained.I go up to my room and cry more.I decide not to let him ruin the rest of my day so I decide to call Trina for a girls night,she is beyond ecstatic.I have two hours to get ready so I decide to cry some more.I do not know why I care so much.I just miss him so much.I cry even harder thinking about how fast I fell for him in the 48 hours I knew him.I miss the feeling he gave me I can't take it. I do not know if it is love or infacuation I miss him so much.I fall to my knees in the middle of my bedroom,crying harder than ever.Trina runs up stairs and comes to hugs me.I cry into my best friends arms.
I tell her about Eric and the kiss,the hotel,our day together,and the fight.She comforts me while I cry even harder thinking about everything.She tells me I can't let a boy get me down.I start to think about Drew I bet he wouldn't do that,why the hell am I thinking about him.I realize something.I like Drew too.Ob God what am I gonna do I like two guys I will have to choose quick or I will end up stuck between choosing.The rest of the nights is spent eating tacos that we made and Netflix.I still miss Eric but not as bad.Trina falls asleep on Orange is the new Black and I do the same shortly after , dreaming of a time when Eric wouldn't have hit me.I honestly hope we work everything out.
(So all of their fights are gonna be pretty depressing so a good song to listen to during is "The Crying Game." by Nicki minaj.Also "I lied." and certain fights will be Grand piano.So if you guys were in Jasmine's shoes what would you do?)