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That was quite odd. Wala kasing masyadong nagtetext sa akin. Bukod sa tinatamad akong mag load sa kanto ay wala naman silbing tong inbox ko e.

Nanlaki ang mata ko pagbukas ng punyetang inbox at naiinis ako bigla na parang gusto kong tapunin ang cellphone ko na pinagipunan ko ng isang taon.

The devil returns.

Fuck.

Puro sakanya galing. Ang ganda naman wow. I feel so honored. Mark the sarcasm. Nakakunot ang noo ko nang simulan ko tong buksan isa isa at sinimulang basahin.

From: Xed
Oy!

From: Xed
Elleyyy may sasabihin ako...

From: Xed
Alam kong gising ka pa wag kang mag kunwaring tulog alam kong nagbabasa ka lang.

From Xed:
Elle naman o wag ka ngang snob.

From Xed:
Oy I need your help.

From: Xed
Seriously Elle, please reply!

From: Xed
Wala ka nanaman bang load? Loadan kita replyan mo lang ako or sa viber ka mag reply.

From: Xed
Its about your step sister...

From: Xed
Ngayon mo pa talaga akong hindi papansinin.

From: Xed
Fine Elle, maybe your already sleeping but please reply when you wake up and see this. Don't forget. Sleep tight princess. :)

Sobra sobra ang inis ko kaya tinapon ko ang unang bagay na nahawakan ko. Buti na lang at unan iyon at tumama lang sa bintanang nakasarado.

I was so annoyed and infuriated with that guy. Bwiset ka. Putangina mo. Leche ka. After 2 months saka mo lang ako papansinin ulit. Saka ka lang magtetext pag may kailangan kang malaman sa punyeta kong step sister! Kapag bored ka ako ang hinahanap mo. Lagi na lang after 2 weeks or a week ng hindi mo ako pinapansin at hindi ka nagpaparamdam saka ka pa susulpot ulit at tungkol nanaman kay Aisha ang paguusapan natin tangina Xed pagod na pagod na ako. Tangina talaga sagad.

Hindi ko siya nireplyan. That was my decision.

I just plugged my earphones in and continue reading. It was unusual for me to completely ignore his messages. Dahil kapag lagi siyang nagtetext ay agad akong magreply. It may took 5 mins after for me to reply pero hindi ko siya iniisnob. That was just not my nature. Pero napuno na ako e. Sobra na akong nainis at nasaktan.

Xed and I, we were bestfriends since senior year started. Dahil tinulungan ko siya kay Aisha. Close na close kami. Hindi mo kami maipaghiwalay. Matangkad siya, maputi, his hair was a shade of dark brown and burgundy. A basketball player and 6'0 tall. Lahat ng babae ay nagkakagusto sa kanya. Cliche right? Mailap siya sa mga babae. Ayaw na ayaw niya sa min. He was kind of mysterious that way. Kaya laking gulat ko nang nilapitan niya ako at pinansin.

I was nerdy back then. Pero I never get bullied. I was morena and had straight black hair. I wasn't skinny or fat. Somewhere in between. I was 5'5 feet tall. And I was a bit boyish, by the way that I dressed. Minsan nga nagsusuot ako ng glasses because I'm nearsighted. Lagi kong suot sa school ay pants, shirts or sweaters pati converse. Lahat kasi ng babae sa school namin ay babaeng babae. Shorts, blouses, skirts. Makeup and heels that weren't really my type. I actually despised them. Wala kasing masyadong policy about clothes basta wag ka lang magbikini sa or hubad pag pumunta sa eskwelahan.

Kaya sobra akong nagulat nang nilapitan ako ni Xed noon.

It was a cold rainy friday. Late akong nagising dahil sira ang alarm clock ko. Hindi na nga ako na kaligo ay nagbun na lng ako habang nagmamadaling magsweater. Nakalimutan ko na wala na pala akong pants dahil hindi pa kami nagpa-laundry kaya I had no choice but to where shorts. I had my glasses on because my head was spinning and I couldn't see clearly. Agad agad akong nagpara ng tricycle at nagmadaling pumunta sa school.