Reminiscence

Like I Did

To: the girl he'll love after me

Hey there, first of all I want to say congratulations. Congratulations that he's finally yours! That he loves you so dearly. I hope you'll remember that. I want to thank you for giving him a chance to swoon you over and be his. Thank you for finally making him happy after all these years. Thank you for being there for him when he needs you. Thank you for being strong and independent when he is down. Thank you for making him laugh when he's nervous.

Thank you for doing all the things I didn't do. Thank you.

Remember that he shall do anything for you. Even when it terrifies him. He'll do it because he loves you. He'll watch horror flicks and ride rollercoasters with you even when he shits his pants. He will try ziplining and bungee jumping if you want an adventure. He will climb a mountain and go camping with you even when he's scared of the woods. He will do these things because thats how much he loves you and

I hope you won't take his love for granted, like I did.

Take him to art museums and libraries. Because he has a passion for art and literature. Take him to art exhibits and book charities. Because he has a kind heart. Take him to any artsy place and he shall be thrilled. Buy him a canvas and lots and lots of paint, it may be acrylic, poster or watercolour. He'll love you more for that and he'll even paint you a portrait. When it comes to his passion, he's deeply serious about him. Buy hin food and iced tea when he paints because he forgets to eat everytime he has work to do. He can even go days without sleeping or eating, just to finish his masterpiece. And oh,

Please don't get bored with him, like I did.

He has a lot of weird quirks. Like dipping bananas in soy sauce and mixing ketchup with it. He taps his fingers every time he's getting nervous and he scratches the back of his next. He also plays with his hair. His palms sweat everytime he gets nervous. He dips his salty fries into vanilla ice cream with maple syrup on top. He's a caffeine addict. He needs coffee three times a day. It's his neccessity. He loves to watch romantic comedy films and musicals. He can play the piano but he could never play the guitar. He dances like an idiot everytime a Maroon 5 songs comes up. He does everything all at once. A multi-tasker and a total procrastinator.

Please don't be weirded out by him, like I did.

When you fight, always remember to never bring up his parents. Because they're gone and he still doesn't quite accept it. Listen to what he has to say. He'll explain his side and you'll explain yours. Please don't get mad when he becomes jealous and clingy. He's such a sweet guy. Please understand his reasons because you mean more to him than you think. He will never get tired of saying sorry.

He'll even stay outside your house when you still won't forgive him. He'll do anything, he will even beg for forgiveness. He could never lose someone as precious as you. He won't lift a finger on you. Its okay for him to get hurt, rather than you. Because he'll do anything to protect you. That's one of his principles and promises.

Please don't shut him out, like I did.

Don't choose him over your career. Choose him beyond anything else. Because you can never find a guy likehim for a lifetime. He's unique. And its so hard to find a replacement for him and its a big no. Don't leave him when you don't see a better idea.

Don't ever abandon him when he needs you the most. Don't leave him crying like a baby for months. Don't leave hin brokenhearted. Don't leave his soul and heart shattered because of the happenings between the both of you. Don't leave him for anything else.

Please don't leave him, like I did.

When your relationship is clearly on the rocks, please fix it. Fix what's left of it. Don't throw it all away. Because the years you've spent together is for keeps. Don't gamble and rely on destiny or fate to help your issues. Do everything in your will power to mend the broken pieces of your love. Because he can never be fix again if you break his heart. He'll be shattered completely.

If he begs for you to stay then stay. If he begs for your love, give him your love. If he begs for your forgiveness, forgive him. Because I don't want to see him ending his life when you'll break his heart. His such a weak and yet a strong person at the same time.

Please don't break his heart, like I did.

I don't want to see him broken again because of another girl. And I know its my fault that I left him alone. That I was the one who broke his heart. But I did it for a reason and that's another story to tell. When you see this letter please keep this in your mind. All of it. Because his so much more.

He's worthy of your love, of what you can give. I know I don't have the right to be this broken since I was the one who left him but damn it still hurts. It still hurts to see him happy with you. To love you. To be with you. And the thought of it makes my heart ache even more. And the regret and sorrow is so strong. I wished I didn't do it but then, there's no turning back. I am in a point of no return.

I just need to tell you one last thing, I loved him so much and I still love him. Even though it hurts. But I hope you'll love him the way he loves you.

Please don't commit the same mistakes like I did.

From: the girl who broke his heart