My Unrequited Love

Chapter 21

Chapter 21

 

Ryan's POV

 

          For the last thirty minutes, I've been staring at the night sky. It was cloudy; no stars, no moon. It was lifeless...like me.

          I took another sip from my canned beer and bowed my head. I combed my hair out of frustration. After seeing her again, I realized my feelings never changed. No matter how many times I tried to convince myself that it's better this way, a part of me still hopes for a second chance. Second chance? I laughed at my own thoughts. How could I ask for a second chance when I didn't even give her a chance to have me? I'm an asshole for letting her go.

          A loud bang from the door pulled me from my thoughts. I saw Aldrich walking fast towards me.

          "What the hell are you doing here?! I thought you were in Japan." He stated.

          I took another canned beer form the plastic bag and tossed it to him. "I'm glad you came."

          He caught it with his left hand. "Ano ba kasing ginagawa mo rito? Seriously Ryan? Pwede mo naman akong puntahan sa bar. Kailangan ba talagang dito pa tayo sa rooftop magkita?"

          I took another sip from my beer and answered him. "Ayoko sa bar, masyadong maingay."

          He took a deep sigh. "You know I'm a busy person. Kaya mo bang bayaran ang oras ko?"

          "Pwede bang umupo ka nalang? Tang*na, ang ingay mo eh."

          "G@go! Eh kung batukan kaya kita ngayon?"

          Hindi na ako sumagot. Nagpatuloy ako sa pag inom ng beer. I'm feeling wasted. Wala akong panahon para makipagbangayan kay Aldrich.

          Ilang sandali pa'y naupo na rin si Aldrich sa tabi ko. "Alam ba ng parents mo na nandito ka sa Pinas?" he asked.

          "Kailangan pa ba nilang malaman 'yon? Kailangan ko bang ireport lahat ng gagawin ko? Tang*na, hindi na ako bata."

          Itinaas niya ang dalawa niyang kamay. "P*ta, nagtanong lang ako. Oo o hindi lang naman ang isasagot mo."

          Umiling ako. "Hindi nila alam."

          Tumawa siya. "Bago 'yan ah. Nagrerebelde ka ba? Mabuti naman at natuto ka na." He teased. "Eh bakit ka nga ba kasi nandito? Tang*na, parang kanina ko pa 'yon tinatanong sa'yo ah."

          Hindi ko sinagot ang tanong niya.

          "Nandito ka para kay Monique?"

          Tumango ako. Hindi ko na kailangan pang ilihim dahil 'yon naman ang totoo. Bumalik ako para kay Monique. Nilibang ko ang sarili ko Japan para kalimutan siya. Whenever I try to forget her, she's there. She's always been there.

          "Kung nandito ka para sa kanya, bakit ako ang kausap mo ngayon at hindi siya? Pinuntahan mo na dapat siya."

        "I went to her house, but she's not there. Sinabi sa'kin ng kasambahay nila na bumukod na raw siya."

          Tumango siya. "Yeah. And she also got a job in Kinghorn's Corp, in case you don't know."

          Yumuko ako. "I was on my way to her place when I saw her in a restaurant, with Red." I almost whispered the last two words. Hindi ko parin maalis sa isip ko ang eksenang nakita ko kanina. I keep on replaying it in my mind. For the first time, her smiles hurt me. It never felt good seeing her smile because of Red. Bumaba pa talaga ako sa kotse ko para i-confirm ang nakita ko. At sobrang pinagsisihan ko ang ginawa kong 'yon dahil para ko lang sinaksak ang sarili ko. Sobrang sakit.