What I Never Knew I Needed

Ch. 46 - I See Red

I See Red - Everybody Loves an Outlaw

"Run, hide. Oh, you're so done. Oh, better sleep with one eye open tonight. I see red, red, oh red"

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Y/N's POV

Turning on her heel and giving me a look that shook my very soul she raised her voice at me. "I said, were the fuck have you been, Y/N?"

"I went for a run."

"Where?! To mother fucking Georgia?!"

"Liz, I was going to get an Uber at the halfway point but I forgot my phone."

"Oh, trust me I know you forgot your damn phone. I've been trying to call you for hours!" She said forcefully as tears welled up in her eyes. I could tell by how red and puffy they already were, she had already been crying for a while.

And I hate that I was the reason why. I felt so damn small.

"I thought something happened to you." She said through broken sobs.

"I'm sorry I -" I moved to step towards her but froze when she took a step back. Damn, that hurt.

"Where did you go?"

"The river." I mumbled.

"That's kind of far for someone who doesn't like to run." She said, skeptically, tilting her head at me.

"Lizzie, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to go that far but I was about to have a panic attack here and I had to go. I promise that's where I was."

Her eyes widened slightly as tears filled them once again. "I couldn't have helped with your panic attack?" She asked with a broken expression. "You help me with mine?"

Um, excuse me? Where is the nearest cliff?

I couldn't even bring myself to look her in her eyes. She was so disappointed in me, betrayed by me, angry at me, and worst of all; I deserved every ounce of it. The guilt I was feeling was clawing into my throat with a grip that would not be letting go any time soon.

Lizzie, seemed to make her mind up about something, because her expression changed. She found a resolve and looked at me with a mix of anger, and something I couldn't quite place, in her eyes as she slowly approached me. She tilted her head again as she closed the gap and said, "You really scared me, Y/N. I've been alone for over three hours crying, worrying over you, thinking something happened to you. That's not very nice now is it?"

I shook my head 'no' because I really wasn't sure where she was going with this and I had no idea how to react.

She grabbed my chin and forced my gaze down to hers. God, she was scary right now.

"Words."

"No, it wasn't nice."

She hummed in response as she started to walk in a slow circle around me, trailing her fingers over my chest, shoulders, back, and back to my chest as she completed her circle.

"Could've used your words. Could've torn the check up. But you ran. Ran away from me. Ran away from the problem." She stopped in front of me and said, "That's not what good girls do, is it?"

I gulped in response as I could now see very clearly where this was heading. I was suddenly extremely turned on, as well as very afraid of the path we were about to go down.

Gotta see it through, though.

"No." I whispered, breathless.

Lizzie smirked at the effect she was having on me and said "I agree. I don't think actions like that deserve to be rewarded. Do you?"