Soleil & Tremaine (A love story)

Chapter 59

Soleil POV

To be continued

"You think we can talk?" My mom asked me and I froze a bit.

Because now I hate having conversations with this woman.

"Honestly... Tonight may not be a good time because it's dad's birthday and I don't-"

"Lay, I'm not on no bullshit, I just want a one on one talk with my daughter. That's all." My mom said and I just looked at her.

And sighed.

Because why do I always feel somewhat bad for her after everything she's said, and done.

Sometimes I wish I didn't have the heart I have.

"Alright, alright." I said.

"Come on Tremaine we gone go over here while they chop it up" My dad said to him and he nodded his head and walked off with my dad, I seen them having a conversation as me and my mom stood in front of each other.

"I missed you." My mom said and I chuckled.

"Mom you ain't gotta play nice just because dad is over there and-"

"I'm not! Why don't you believe anything I say?" She asked me and I rose my eyebrows.

"Are you seriously asking me that?" I asked and she sighed.

"I know we ended things off on a bad foot, but do you think I like being at odds with my daughter? No" She said.

"Then why did you call me a bitch, twice?" I asked. "That hurt my feelings." I said honestly.

Because parents need to know when they hurt you, because sometimes us as children enable their bullshit so they don't even see what they're doing wrong sometimes as PARENTS. But I'm not doing that anymore.

I went my entire life without this woman, up until I was 17. So, I'm gone say how I feel about whatever.

"Well.." She said.

"Well what?" I said.

"You were being one. You were!" My mom said.

"See this is exactly what I'm talking about" I said about to walk off but she grabbed my arm.

"Soleil you don't walk away from me, I'm your mother. Do you hear me on that shit?" She asked me.

"You walked away from me. When I was 4. Remember?" I said and she just looked at me.

"I'm still your mother." She said to me.

"And when you was leaving the hospital with Desireè when you weren't supposed to, I told you fine, leave like you always do, and you remember what you said?" I asked her.

"What?" She asked.

"You said yep, I sure will." I said, clearing my throat because I can feel myself ALMOST getting emotional.

I HATE that my mom makes me so emotional, because I feel like I shouldn't be.

I just don't understand a lot of the decisions she made, and still makes.

"And then you told me you don't love me, you only love Desireè. You said that out of your own mouth" I said.

"Desireè is my daughter Soleil!" My mom yelled.

"So am I" I said looking at her like she was crazy. It's like she disowns me right in my face.

"SHE'S MY FIRST CHILD! MY FIRST BORN!" She yelled.

"So?" I said, trying not to yell back.

"My loyalty is with her! And I was talking to her while she was in foster care too so we have a better relationship! Me and her, we're more alike! We understand each other!" My mom said.