Soleil & Tremaine (A love story)

Chapter 48

Tremaine POV

"Aye baby, I'm finna be out" I said walking in Soleil's room. But I seen she was laying down, staring at the ceiling and that concerned me.

"Mookie.." I said walking closer to her, and I sat on the edge of the bed.

"Yeah" She said.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

She sighed and sat up in the bed.

"I don't know.." Soleil said rubbing her face.

"What's going on baby?" I asked.

"So I got a call from Dr.Lacy. Apparently my mom relapsed, and she's back in the hospital. She requested that he call me, and so he did. And she was crying and crying, like the last time. Saying she was cold and in pain and how much she love and needs me. And I'm just upset that I feel bad." Soleil said.

I wrapped one arm around her shoulder and just let her vent.

"As badly as she treated me, I still be wanting to help her and I don't understand why." Soleil said.

"Because thats your mom, and I feel like you always wanted that relationship and bond with her. And you never understood why she excluded you from being around, and you still don't understand why" I said.

"I probably never will" Soleil said.

"What have you decided to do? About your mom?" I asked.

"I still don't know.." Soleil said, I looked over at her and she looked zoned out.

"Tremaine... When I was a little girl, and I was in foster care, I used to sit on the front porch of the house, and just sit for hours and hours. Thinking about everything. I had so many questions, I would be so sad... And angry. I was so closed off on everyone." Soleil said.

"Damn.." I mumbled.

"I always wondered where my parents were. I always wondered if they'd come back for me.. I used to be like maybe today she'll come and get me out of here. Or maybe my dad will come and get me out of here. And then one day, I sat on that porch and came to the realization. I was like... My mother's never coming back. My dad's never coming back. And that was really hard for me, being so young. You know?" She said.

"Yeah definitely." I said back. "But at least you got your father now, he really stepped up to the plate like he said he would." I said.

"And I love him so much for that. I never thought I would find someone that would actually love me, like unconditionally." Soleil said.

"Why not?" I asked.

"Because I always thought if my mother didn't love me, how or why would anyone else love me? Those were my thoughts, at age 10. And my foster mother at the time, Lynette, never made my thoughts better. She was terrible" I said.

"Oh yeah, I remember that lady. You used to tell me and Jaden about her in high school" I said

"Mhm." Soleil said.

"How long were you living with her before you moved with Duke?" I asked.

"4 or 5 years. Terrible." Soleil said shaking her head. "Always came up with ways to run away, in my head. Then I finally did." She added.